Opened up =)

Lots of thing have happen...In this world as well as on me. Lets talk about the world...1st, mass killing case in some middle east country is so heart breaking. I wonder they treat human life as what? I was so uncomfortable after knowing the news. Then recently, just few day before, my favorite country Japan was strike by a level 8.9 earthquake and follow by the deadly tsunami..SAD!!! Human are so puny when come against nature, People, please love our mother earth.

Now, talk about things happen on me ..=)...basically is about my life. it is not some depressing story, but some heart enlighten one hehe. now, I can say that my life is optimize. On week day, Morning study, evening gym or play badminton, night rest and stay connect with frens. I really enjoy my life! well, sometime laziness still kidnap me, I still trying my best to get rid of it.

On weekend, I usually spent most of my time in church. Friday night I will got to youth alpha, Saturday night I go church for songs practice, Sunday morning is service and afternoon is youth activity^^. Other then go to church, Saturday morning and afternoon I will go play badminton...I kinda addicted to badminton hehe. Anyone interested to play with me?

Ok, now talk about the title of this blog post, Opened up, I basically is mean I escape from the claw of emo and heartaches den open my heart back to the world. What I wan to say is about the feeling and things I feel. When ppl is happy, good things will come along and vice versa. During the "dark age" of my world, I feel that no one understand me, no one really care, but now, I can confidently say all of that are false!...My frens and family care, they never forget me =), the problem is myself who close my own hear from them.

Life is beautiful, I am not talking about some people's life, but everyone's...life maybe is unfair, but trust yourself to live over it or even change it. Gambateh Minna, watashi no tomotachi.

New Sem, New Me~~~

Minna san, tadaima...well, now is already going to last day of 2nd week. My burning study passion almost gone off...thats bad...><

Good thing is, I can leave those lovely loverly couple feeling aside...Cursed me for about one year...I think i need to wait awhile to touch back those thing...

Hehe, I should be doing my homework now, but I am here...facing the screen, with my headset budded in my ears enjoying the songs again and again =)...

My peaceful life, think over many things and wider view, accepting things are as they are as well as ppl...life is easier and yet complicated. Dealing with lots of peoples are hard, but I cant back off, its a path I must take to grow up.

All I can do is try my best, and hope other can understand my lacks. I mean, I am not God or some perfect guy, I am a human too, I am not perfect...I fail and I stand back up and learn to not fall at the same spot...thats life.

Yea, sometime is depressing to see other fail to meet my expectation...but I think they doing for the best at that situation...What for I go and blame them? I cant gain anything from it but instead losing something I hold dear? Losing the precious friendship? If I go cheer them up or help them up will be better? well, I so wish everyone can be like this...at least everyone can be happy.

I don't know what other chasing in life, money? happiness? love? dreams? or just passing time? I pursuing my dream, a dream to live in a peaceful place without hatred everyone trying their best to help each other.

The smile on all of your face mean so much to me, the your laughters echo in my hearts leaving behind is those sweet memories we shared. Every thing about us, i swear I will hold dear and never let go...because of you all, I lived on and fight hard =)...

Thx god for letting me open my heart up after those hard time, these few day, i keeping some old fren in touch, a simple greeting is saving the sinking friendship...I am so enjoy my life now, I glad my oldself is back, only the good self hehe...

but some fren changed so much, some I hardly talk to them...they are like went and lived in a diff world than me ><...but I try my best to accept your new self, but I wont forget your oldself =)...because that was you too...

Live on, be understanding and smile =)...life is beautiful

成长，人身，世界 和 我

小时候，很想快点长大，不想被人控制。现在，是个懂事的青年，渐渐的要脱离大人们的怀抱了。面对着这复杂的世界，心想着我能活下去吗？心里有无限的担心，害怕。开始不想长大了，但也知道不能逃避，在挣扎。

青年的我，是个日本动漫迷，借此也学了很多东西。人身和世界！

人身，小孩时，单纯的我们，或在大人给的温暖世界。无忧无虑的，充满欢笑声，简简单单的。青少时，开始能看到外面的世界，但还是受着大人们的保护。天真的我们，还是能疯狂。不用去担心那外面的世界变得怎样，只顾着自己和身边的事物，那游戏要怎样完？谁和谁恋爱了，谁失恋了等等的事。自己失恋了，要生要死的，一点都没发现这在外面的世界根本不算什么。或许，外面的世界没那么恐怖吧？我也是个青年，我没活在其中。

还记得，2008年，年尾，我学着别人也开始了自己的一段恋情。发展了一年多，就这样没了。第一次有这样的打击，不知该如何面对。生活搞得一团糟。那时，想了许多，也学了很多，慢慢的又爬起来了。把目标找回来了，该忘的也忘了。可以再次奔驰了，向着这陌生的世界，我不想逃避。管他会不会跌倒，只想奔驰去追求那飞翔的感觉。就算一个人也要征服自己眼前的一切。这是梦想吧？说的容易，但我不想只说。希望我这想法不再动摇了，真的要好好努力了。

不想再为着那改变不了的过去，忘了眼前那可以变得更好的未来！相信自己可以就好了吧。=）

回来了^^

差不多一个月没写了，原因是我的网络的信号太差了，上网要很费工夫。这些日子里都在看动漫，每一部都带着意义，学了很多，有些事也想通了。我想这次放完假回去，会好好的去学习了。想回去，我浪费一年多时间在挣扎。虽然，现在还不是很稳定，但至少找回斗志了。

农历新年的假期过了，很多人都回去工作和学习了。接下来的节日应该是情人节吧，到时，处处都写着情人节快乐，对我来说还很讽刺哦，又要一个人过了的我。安慰的话也不用说了，钱包穿洞，好过心穿洞吧？谁会想要孤单一个人啊？但孤单也要过日子叻，没办法啊。唉！

哎呀，不理了啦。这么久没发泄了！但是来来去去，还是她。现在忽冷忽热的，都不知她在想什么。想到她，那讨厌的感觉又来了。唉，谁叫我这么没用？想了很多“为什么就放不下她？”的答案，自己都乱了啦！没办法啦，认命了。水瓶座的命运？破碎的瓶子，就算补好了，还是有痕的。现在，不完美了，谁要啊？到最后只好躲在角落，以免去拖累人家。做好自己就好了。

说实话，我真的不知道，那“乐观我”和“悲观我”的仗要打到几时。很累啊，跟自己打。连在写着这个都在打。唉！该死的脑子，去想什么“我像没有月亮的星空一样，没了主角，但还是能发出灿烂光彩”，“光彩个头啊？想没了太阳的地球才对，一片黑暗。" 就这样打个没完没了。

我又要换话题了，我越来越讨厌上面子书了，一，看到自己曾喜欢的人，一个一个都有令一半了，心很不舒服啊。二，那些情侣公开的打情骂俏，不理别人的感受的。唉！没办法啦，什么种人都有，管不了这样多！静静离开就好了。

以前的我，好天真啊，想要和全世界的人做朋友。大了，看世界看多了，看到那些种种歧视，不公平的事。不用说全世界啦，那些事，身旁就一大堆了。就因着别人而努力，而牺牲的人，还剩多少个？处处为别人着想的人，在这时代能坚持到几时？

我的问题不回完的啊！脑子就是喜欢没事找事做。。。=_=”该停歇了，写不完的啊我的问题

My holiday..

My holiday already pass about 1 month...all I did is nothing...LIFELESS days..><"...should have listen to mom and go take a job =="

well, all i do in pass few day is Morning: Online Night: Anime or Game ~~~~ well, I did help out my parent abit..ABIT xD...

well, My lifeless life got nothing to talk about...I shall talk about anime...in this one month..I finished 6 anime...all very meaning full except for one..I really dun get whats the point they make that anime =="...

because of that anime I learn a lot..and had some think trough...Hope those feeling can stay in my mind...=)...

I have lots of dreams...I really hope I can chase them all...but for now, I just wanna learn more...Not matter how much I dun wan to grow up, be mature..one day, I have to too..cant escape...so, I thought, why dun make it more meaning full? more content.. (wish this thinking can last)

My Life~

Din Update few days ady....the reason is >>>>My broadband's plan had been changed..I hardly use the internet at nite....beside that, I found another blog system which is so awesome =) >>tumblr....

K..These few day I din any thing special actually...Just slacking at home, watch Anime and movie...Finished, Code Geass..Season 1 and 2
...
As they said..It was awesome!! =)...xD, But is hard to impress an Aquarius....
Den just now just finish watching G-Force...

o.O Damn funny =) and cute =3...LOL, and I wonder the theory they said about the animal is true or not...

Beside online and Movie..I played NFS Most Wanted..Well, haven finish it, Honestly..I prefer NFS carbon...=) no offence...

Well, this is pretty much of my holiday life...Now await CNY coming =)...More funs to go...after CNY, Need back to study ><"...but no choice, cant lose behind...And I think i can fully concentrate...as i quited Maple =)..sry maple frens and family...I sure i will really miss u guys..another reason is because of her =)

Speaking of her....My heartache finally over =)...because she is back, as a FRIEND...Complete let down..phew, like unloaded a super heavy load..Thx You so much...and Thx god =)..After all, Friend still the best...

Oh ya..This picture which i found in Tumblr..

This Is pretty much I have been trough with her...Well, 2nd round i guess...I sure tis time will stop at Friend...Cross my heart..=)...

Today~

Today..2nd day of 2011...It is special not just because it is 2nd day...Is because is my mom's b.day^^...and is sunday

K..start from morning..early in the morning..7 am..woke by mummy..==" coz need send didi go airport..I wanna sleepp..but i went anyway..

b4 go airport..we go mum mum 1st...we had our breakfast at Hai wai tian (fo shang)..the foods there not bad lar..=)

K reach airport, KK terminal 2..specially for Airasia..

1st thing to do, go verify the boarding pass...as my didi ady online checked in yesterday..and he dun have baggage to check in..There we go, skip the line and just ask for a chop, den the person at counter say, go line up.. WTH? den my didi online check in is like useless??

K, thats the bad part =(...good part is, I met some old frens =)..some, but i talked to one only, my childhood best friend..still so yeng as last time..LOL...

After that, we go to church...Met, My aunt, uncle and cousin there =) they are from kudat LOL...well, ntg much to talk about in church..k, skip =)

After Church, we go town, planned to bank in those house rental fees..but WTH, town full of people, no parking...GIVE UP..><"

Changed our course to Inanam as there also have many banks =)...and had our lunch at there...kinda bo hua de lunch =="...

Den go back to fo shang to buy daddy's new paper (weekly routine that never changed)==", den go back town again to buy present for mummy..LOL..

1st go wawasan 2020...go Parkson there find bag...den mummy realize she still have a new bag haven use LOL?

den mummy say wan go wisma, buy new sun glass...o.O..but end up no buying any sun glass but go into tongs..and buy daddy de cloth..LOL? present forget Liao..

after that go back home...I am so tired ==" and stomach pain...and i sleep for the rest of the afternoon...

Yeah, daddy promises to bring us to go steamboat tonite ^^..we went to kampung nelayan..as didi went there last few day and say he eat till vomit..==" ...

There offer a buffet + steamboat package..rm30++ per pax..nice =)...I wanna take picture, but i forget to bring my phone zzz...the surrounding very nice...quite comfortable..and it is on a lake..=)...the food still ok lar..not super good, but reasonable for that price la...had a great time =)...

I think, the rest of my day end up with i sit in front of comp till I sleep..as usual!