Recently~

What a busy week...><" tomorrow will be my math exam, last heavy subject exam for this sem...but that doesn't mean i will be free after that ><"...church camp is getting nearer, I still have finish those task in my hand....

Tomorrow my exam is at 2pm...it is a 3 hours exam...3 tiring hours...after that, I need to go worship convention at 7...and MAYBE will join others for badminton at 10...busy and interesting LIFE =)

Something happened to me recently...my heart sway again...should keep my mind focus ><", but I still will admit that she is special...maybe too special for me to handle...

while writing this, I having my headsets plugin to my ears and enjoying 杨丞琳's 左边...fell in love with this song ady...I 1st time hear it is from church's sing k event...i forget who choose it ady...but it is very nice =)...thousand feelings rushing inside me ^^

recently, I have so much to say, so much feelings...but I chose to hold myself back...duno is wise choice or not...I only know i ain't feel good ...

Bad day~~~

><"...ahh, today is really not my day ><"...1st is exam...today i had circuits and electronic 1 exam...it was so hard...I think i can just barely pass..zzz

den 2nd is got turn down by daddy....I was planing to go sg, because air asia got cheap air ticket...den daddy say this say tat...cant go liao lu T.T

den 3rd is was originally i got to play badminton tonite....but then end up cancel....haiz...bad day lu....

kays vent my unhappiness out ady =)...feel alot better...hehe

Life~

Din update for quite awhile, I was busy studying for my exams...hardly have time to update. Well, I still have exam tomorrow, but I got some feel now, so must update =)

Everyone's life is different, because we walked different path, been through different places. when think back, I have walked all the way here, is not easy!! All thanks to those who walked with me before =). I fell, I stand back up...I cant be sure I wont fell again...but I must stand up every time i fell.

Life is full of wonders and unpredictable things. I never though I still have so much to talk with her...It has been a year plus since we stop contacting each other. I treat her as a friend, a very special one. She helped learned so much! She make me realize how immature I was. A Big Thanks to her =)

Life can be a rough journey, but that is what make us strong. What every road I facing, I just gonna keep my head up, feet on the ground and keep moving forward.

过去的天使~

今天是她的生日，虽然没什么为她准备，只简简单单得发了一封祝福和问候的短信给她。她是我的过去，也算是我生命的转折点。虽然对她没什么感觉了，可是和她一起的点点滴滴是已烙印在心了，毕竟是曾经真心爱过。

发了那封短信过后，我和她就很平凡，很自然得聊起来了。当时，我的心情很平静，应该是真的放下了吧。聊了一些，知道她还过得不错，感到很安慰。

想回以前的时光，突然感到有些孤单。以前，高兴时，第一个就告诉她了，虽然看不到她那笑容，却还能感到心暖暖的。。现在，就算告诉了全部人，得到了所有人灿烂的笑容，还是感觉没什么的。。。。伤心时，第一个找她诉苦，会得到一份安慰。现在，看着那面子书或电话的朋友列表，都不知应该找谁，有谁会在乎呢？

哎，虽然很想念，可是还是让自己继续走下去了。。。虽然现在还是一个人，但可以重新开始了新生活。=）而且喜欢上了新的天使。这是我给你的承诺吧~ 希望你也能遵守你给我的诺言。

Bye bye another week ~

Another week just pass like that...rushed 3 assignment in this week ><"...1st is tsd, well not much prob with that...then is math assignment...I got help from friend and manage to finish it...then next the the ded project...I manage to wrote the codes out but for some reason it is not working ><"

Another thing is I received a bad new in this week, my school dont have offer winter sem subject for engineering student...my plans spoiled because of that, I din play anything for spent my 2 months holiday lar...and I dont wish to go back home lor...well, planning to take some other subject or take some course to kill time...

well, I think thats all the eye catching things happen in this week...

Another week flew~

whoosh...another week flew away, I was so busy with assignments and test...><...another semester almost come to an end just like that, when think back, it feel like the open school is just yesterday...

Well, for this week, I spent most of my time studying math...as math test in on Saturday which is today...I did it badly, so I not really wanna talk more about it ><"...another test which is TSD(technical software development) is at yesterday...well, not much prob with that, just few careless mistake...I just cant get careless out of me ><"

I got not much to write about ><...I think I will end here...cya~

Friends~

Friends precious...Friends can be easily to find, but not many can be connect by heart...Some maybe get together just purely for fun, some are worse, they are fake friends who get close just for benefit...but now, I dont wanna talk about bad or fake friends...no point talking about bad things rite?...

Friends share everything with us, memories, secrets, laughters, tears and time...some time they can be more caring than lover, they can be more understands you than family...these are friends...people who I dont ever wanna lost...

Friends maybe will make fun of you sometimes...they may said bad things about you, but I sure they dont mean it...sometimes they critic you in a very mean ways, but all they have in their mind is all for you own good...

Friends are kind and considerate...Unlike with couple, we can show what ever face of us without being embarrassed...With friend, we can trow away pride and image aside..xD...we can do stupid things together and laugh with it..^^...

When you faced a problem, friends are people you can reach out to...they listen every word you want to say, they respect your decision, they get worried with you...they care you as much as you care them...they support in every way they can...they never leave you alone...

When you happy, u can always tell them, and see them get happier than you...

They know your things, good or bad, and they accept them all...these are friends, I treasure everyone of them...=) thx alot guys

Special day~

Today is Monday, 2nd of May, because of 1st of May labor day falls on Sunday, so we have 2nd of May to be holidays..YAY...

After some trouble and worries, we finally planned out a trip to Adis buan...Although there are till problem here and there..but we still able to make it through without killing the mood..hehe...

1st is, we din know the road to adis is so bad..Lucky the rough road din bring us any big problem...Okay, under the lead of a uncle, we safely reached Adis Buan resort...It is a nice place =)...Although it is not so high class, but it brings me closer to nature...

Well, the Uncle who lead us to here help us arranged a guide for us to jungle trekking...big thanks to the uncle =)...then comes a minor problem, while waiting the guide to come, we got nothing to do...so we wondering around try to killing time with anything we found...there are monkeys and owl in cages for us to see...hehe...how rare to see an owl...its eyes are so big...almost like a fake plastic eyes...><"

Okay, finally the guide came, there goes our journey...the trek is not steep like mountain, but it got its own challenges too...1st, because it just rained, the ground is wet and muddy...2nd, there are so many 独木桥, and they are not so welled support ><", 3rd is the trek is to narrow, all leaves and grass is leg cutting (but I expected this much to happen) haha...but anyways, it was fun!!...

After coming out from the walk...we saw some other was playing kayaks...!!!! we headed straight to extent the booking time...and here we goes to play water yay!!...the water is very clear...I have a very good time with others in the water too ....for the 1st time I played kayak on my own....and for the 1st time, I wont getting nervous going under water...

I think those are the most interesting part...there are stories happend between me and her...but I dun feel like sharing it here...sry >< "...as conclude, today I am super happy...

Life~

Life is hard, went I walking into adult's world, step by step, I can feel it more and more clear...No one u can rely other than your own. There are friends who are ready to lend you a hand, but in the end, you have to solve your problem yourself.

Last time, I was covered under parent's care and protection. Anything I want, they will try to make it possible...that time Life is easy, but all I know is complaining about teacher and stuff, when think back, those thing just a mere of puny problem compare to adult's world.

In Church, they told me, when ever you need help, you can ask from GOD..Yup, I believe that, GOD gave me courage to face the problem, but I still need to solve it myself, but thx GOD for that. I dont expect GOD will solve those problems for me while I doing nothing...I dont believe it will work that way.

Not everything I can have it my ways even I tried my best. Other may say this is unfair, but I just take it as I have not met the standard. Anyways, just live with it...

My life now, is not too bad, I cant say that it is good, but at least I satisfy with it. Got foods to eat, got roof over me, got school to go, got cloth to wear...When looking at other who life is not as good as me, I asked myself, where did I get the rights to complain? I already have more than other, I should be glad...

I wonder I am a perfectionist or not, but I feel that when I doing things for other(not myself) I try my hardest to make it as good as it can be...my expectation is very high and I cant meet them most of the time. I dont like those feelings...

Another thing I found myself very bad at is trusting other's ability...for most of the time, I do all the works myself. I tried to share with my partner before, at the end, I prepare everything and let them do the final touch...><"

Oh,I kinda out of topic..xD....Life~, I wonder what will mine will be like in future...I wonder my dreams can come true or not...Now I struggling to score well in my study, I trying my best to learn for my future, but I ended up slacking...I dont know why...Even I full with passion to study, but still I will get distracted by other things.

As a boy, I not ready to grow up so I wont call myself man...><", It is natural for me to fall for girl...I made promise to myself, I will work hard so that I will be able to take care of them and by that time then I will let her know my feelings ><"
as I don't want her to suffer or worry with me. I wonder will other call me selfish?

Another thing about life is, from what I heard, the outside world is dangerous, as other is trying to get benefit from you. They dont care what method to use, even it will destroy you...Friends with knife in their smile, I cant help it but to put my guards up...but how much of this I can avoid? Will I able to stand back up after getting strike?

Maybe I not need to worry about this things for now as I still studying....I am blessed to be on the bright side of this world, but I am sad, pity and admire those those who lived under the shadow of this world, struggling to live on...I wish to share my blessing with them~