Moved!!

I notice there are visitors coming into this blog...well, I have abandon this blog ady...and moved to http://myhapilife.blogspot.com/

My life~~

Yay, assignment almost done =)...but test is coming up ><, haven get into the mood to fit everything into my brain yet...And i have 9 chapter of alien things to read up and MEMORIZE!!! spare my life pls ><"

On the other hand, i learn a lots of things in church =)...basically is all about music and sound thingy =)...1st guitar, while learning, i found my self keep bump into some music theories..well hello theories =) nice to meet u hehe...2nd is sound system, I have been into 2 workshop which talk about sound, i particular interested in the mixer, and today is my 1st time get my hand on tat thing..muhahah..abit screw up...3rd, as church need more bassist, i gonna learn to play bass...sound fun to me hehe...

Beside that, alot of church event coming ahead, wish i have time to participate lu...another is which made me headache!!...duno who sign me into helper for children camp in nov, and i am in charge of games..woaa...is not i not willing to help out, is just the camp date is too close to my exam time!!! haiz...

I gonna say good buy for maple for awhile again...as the event has come to an end...no point to on maple in this critical time. Last 3 weeks le...gonna give in all i have to score!! JYJY!!!

2mr gonna dunk my head deep into the management slides..><" dun wanna fail this subject....life is hard, but full of wonders and surprise..that wad make it interesting.

Recently~~

Well, I din blog for a long time...i still doing great, for now, i busy engage with sch assignment and some church's event. My leisure time spent by playing maple and read manga...

Recently, I started to read one piece manga =)...the story line is amazing!!...and the author is so creative xD...no wonder it is the top manga!.

Last holiday, i spent my time playing maple...I started to play a wild hunter and decided to make it my 2nd main...until now, i manage to get it to 4th job, then sch started, i hardly have time to play...well, wait for next holiday lu...

Currently, i am having my winter sem, I took one subj this time...engineering management 1. well, i can say it is not very hard, but it defiantly not my specialty. Challenge took on xD...

This few day, i keep letting myself to bump into direct selling things...am way and another is ben and da ge selling de. all their business plan sound very attracting and convincing. well, i haven decide yet...must choose wisely =)

Ar...I think i will mention about her abit, as she basically is the center of my mind. I think, until now..we dun have much progress...and it hurt alot when ever i take a move...I am newbie in this kind of things lar...hold on or give up? haiz~~

Holidays =)

Finished my last paper at 8th of june...after that, I spent most of my time in games...which i found quite lifeless xD...

Well, other den games, I still got join church's activities...and i went matang family park this morning and had a great time bbq+ing and play water hehe...yay yay, I can swim ady, thx to you lor suk ping =)...and about the bbq, to be honest, I cant din get to fill my stomach, but I focus treasuring the time i spend with frens but not the money or wad =="

I heard some say is not worth for them as they din manage to get enough...Well, I cant blame them for saying that, but from my point of view, let go those thing wich make you unhapi, and be glad with those that make you hapi...everyday can be a hapi day...

My hapi holidays will be continue =)

Recently~

What a busy week...><" tomorrow will be my math exam, last heavy subject exam for this sem...but that doesn't mean i will be free after that ><"...church camp is getting nearer, I still have finish those task in my hand....

Tomorrow my exam is at 2pm...it is a 3 hours exam...3 tiring hours...after that, I need to go worship convention at 7...and MAYBE will join others for badminton at 10...busy and interesting LIFE =)

Something happened to me recently...my heart sway again...should keep my mind focus ><", but I still will admit that she is special...maybe too special for me to handle...

while writing this, I having my headsets plugin to my ears and enjoying 杨丞琳's 左边...fell in love with this song ady...I 1st time hear it is from church's sing k event...i forget who choose it ady...but it is very nice =)...thousand feelings rushing inside me ^^

recently, I have so much to say, so much feelings...but I chose to hold myself back...duno is wise choice or not...I only know i ain't feel good ...

Bad day~~~

><"...ahh, today is really not my day ><"...1st is exam...today i had circuits and electronic 1 exam...it was so hard...I think i can just barely pass..zzz

den 2nd is got turn down by daddy....I was planing to go sg, because air asia got cheap air ticket...den daddy say this say tat...cant go liao lu T.T

den 3rd is was originally i got to play badminton tonite....but then end up cancel....haiz...bad day lu....

kays vent my unhappiness out ady =)...feel alot better...hehe

Life~

Din update for quite awhile, I was busy studying for my exams...hardly have time to update. Well, I still have exam tomorrow, but I got some feel now, so must update =)

Everyone's life is different, because we walked different path, been through different places. when think back, I have walked all the way here, is not easy!! All thanks to those who walked with me before =). I fell, I stand back up...I cant be sure I wont fell again...but I must stand up every time i fell.

Life is full of wonders and unpredictable things. I never though I still have so much to talk with her...It has been a year plus since we stop contacting each other. I treat her as a friend, a very special one. She helped learned so much! She make me realize how immature I was. A Big Thanks to her =)

Life can be a rough journey, but that is what make us strong. What every road I facing, I just gonna keep my head up, feet on the ground and keep moving forward.

过去的天使~

今天是她的生日，虽然没什么为她准备，只简简单单得发了一封祝福和问候的短信给她。她是我的过去，也算是我生命的转折点。虽然对她没什么感觉了，可是和她一起的点点滴滴是已烙印在心了，毕竟是曾经真心爱过。

发了那封短信过后，我和她就很平凡，很自然得聊起来了。当时，我的心情很平静，应该是真的放下了吧。聊了一些，知道她还过得不错，感到很安慰。

想回以前的时光，突然感到有些孤单。以前，高兴时，第一个就告诉她了，虽然看不到她那笑容，却还能感到心暖暖的。。现在，就算告诉了全部人，得到了所有人灿烂的笑容，还是感觉没什么的。。。。伤心时，第一个找她诉苦，会得到一份安慰。现在，看着那面子书或电话的朋友列表，都不知应该找谁，有谁会在乎呢？

哎，虽然很想念，可是还是让自己继续走下去了。。。虽然现在还是一个人，但可以重新开始了新生活。=）而且喜欢上了新的天使。这是我给你的承诺吧~ 希望你也能遵守你给我的诺言。

Bye bye another week ~

Another week just pass like that...rushed 3 assignment in this week ><"...1st is tsd, well not much prob with that...then is math assignment...I got help from friend and manage to finish it...then next the the ded project...I manage to wrote the codes out but for some reason it is not working ><"

Another thing is I received a bad new in this week, my school dont have offer winter sem subject for engineering student...my plans spoiled because of that, I din play anything for spent my 2 months holiday lar...and I dont wish to go back home lor...well, planning to take some other subject or take some course to kill time...

well, I think thats all the eye catching things happen in this week...

Another week flew~

whoosh...another week flew away, I was so busy with assignments and test...><...another semester almost come to an end just like that, when think back, it feel like the open school is just yesterday...

Well, for this week, I spent most of my time studying math...as math test in on Saturday which is today...I did it badly, so I not really wanna talk more about it ><"...another test which is TSD(technical software development) is at yesterday...well, not much prob with that, just few careless mistake...I just cant get careless out of me ><"

I got not much to write about ><...I think I will end here...cya~

Friends~

Friends precious...Friends can be easily to find, but not many can be connect by heart...Some maybe get together just purely for fun, some are worse, they are fake friends who get close just for benefit...but now, I dont wanna talk about bad or fake friends...no point talking about bad things rite?...

Friends share everything with us, memories, secrets, laughters, tears and time...some time they can be more caring than lover, they can be more understands you than family...these are friends...people who I dont ever wanna lost...

Friends maybe will make fun of you sometimes...they may said bad things about you, but I sure they dont mean it...sometimes they critic you in a very mean ways, but all they have in their mind is all for you own good...

Friends are kind and considerate...Unlike with couple, we can show what ever face of us without being embarrassed...With friend, we can trow away pride and image aside..xD...we can do stupid things together and laugh with it..^^...

When you faced a problem, friends are people you can reach out to...they listen every word you want to say, they respect your decision, they get worried with you...they care you as much as you care them...they support in every way they can...they never leave you alone...

When you happy, u can always tell them, and see them get happier than you...

They know your things, good or bad, and they accept them all...these are friends, I treasure everyone of them...=) thx alot guys

Special day~

Today is Monday, 2nd of May, because of 1st of May labor day falls on Sunday, so we have 2nd of May to be holidays..YAY...

After some trouble and worries, we finally planned out a trip to Adis buan...Although there are till problem here and there..but we still able to make it through without killing the mood..hehe...

1st is, we din know the road to adis is so bad..Lucky the rough road din bring us any big problem...Okay, under the lead of a uncle, we safely reached Adis Buan resort...It is a nice place =)...Although it is not so high class, but it brings me closer to nature...

Well, the Uncle who lead us to here help us arranged a guide for us to jungle trekking...big thanks to the uncle =)...then comes a minor problem, while waiting the guide to come, we got nothing to do...so we wondering around try to killing time with anything we found...there are monkeys and owl in cages for us to see...hehe...how rare to see an owl...its eyes are so big...almost like a fake plastic eyes...><"

Okay, finally the guide came, there goes our journey...the trek is not steep like mountain, but it got its own challenges too...1st, because it just rained, the ground is wet and muddy...2nd, there are so many 独木桥, and they are not so welled support ><", 3rd is the trek is to narrow, all leaves and grass is leg cutting (but I expected this much to happen) haha...but anyways, it was fun!!...

After coming out from the walk...we saw some other was playing kayaks...!!!! we headed straight to extent the booking time...and here we goes to play water yay!!...the water is very clear...I have a very good time with others in the water too ....for the 1st time I played kayak on my own....and for the 1st time, I wont getting nervous going under water...

I think those are the most interesting part...there are stories happend between me and her...but I dun feel like sharing it here...sry >< "...as conclude, today I am super happy...

Life~

Life is hard, went I walking into adult's world, step by step, I can feel it more and more clear...No one u can rely other than your own. There are friends who are ready to lend you a hand, but in the end, you have to solve your problem yourself.

Last time, I was covered under parent's care and protection. Anything I want, they will try to make it possible...that time Life is easy, but all I know is complaining about teacher and stuff, when think back, those thing just a mere of puny problem compare to adult's world.

In Church, they told me, when ever you need help, you can ask from GOD..Yup, I believe that, GOD gave me courage to face the problem, but I still need to solve it myself, but thx GOD for that. I dont expect GOD will solve those problems for me while I doing nothing...I dont believe it will work that way.

Not everything I can have it my ways even I tried my best. Other may say this is unfair, but I just take it as I have not met the standard. Anyways, just live with it...

My life now, is not too bad, I cant say that it is good, but at least I satisfy with it. Got foods to eat, got roof over me, got school to go, got cloth to wear...When looking at other who life is not as good as me, I asked myself, where did I get the rights to complain? I already have more than other, I should be glad...

I wonder I am a perfectionist or not, but I feel that when I doing things for other(not myself) I try my hardest to make it as good as it can be...my expectation is very high and I cant meet them most of the time. I dont like those feelings...

Another thing I found myself very bad at is trusting other's ability...for most of the time, I do all the works myself. I tried to share with my partner before, at the end, I prepare everything and let them do the final touch...><"

Oh,I kinda out of topic..xD....Life~, I wonder what will mine will be like in future...I wonder my dreams can come true or not...Now I struggling to score well in my study, I trying my best to learn for my future, but I ended up slacking...I dont know why...Even I full with passion to study, but still I will get distracted by other things.

As a boy, I not ready to grow up so I wont call myself man...><", It is natural for me to fall for girl...I made promise to myself, I will work hard so that I will be able to take care of them and by that time then I will let her know my feelings ><"
as I don't want her to suffer or worry with me. I wonder will other call me selfish?

Another thing about life is, from what I heard, the outside world is dangerous, as other is trying to get benefit from you. They dont care what method to use, even it will destroy you...Friends with knife in their smile, I cant help it but to put my guards up...but how much of this I can avoid? Will I able to stand back up after getting strike?

Maybe I not need to worry about this things for now as I still studying....I am blessed to be on the bright side of this world, but I am sad, pity and admire those those who lived under the shadow of this world, struggling to live on...I wish to share my blessing with them~

There goes a week~

well, another week has passed...ntg much to talk about actually, just in the whole week, I spent most of my time doing math and slacking...><"...still considering whether next week should stays back or not...I just hard to focus went got other ppl around ><"
well, the only thing that worth to talk about is on Wednesday lor... our sister Anne and Charles's son 1 month old dinner...

The dinner is buffet type, and the food not so bad =), but I hold myself back, dun wan eat too much as I dont have much time to go for exercise...getting fat liao ><", and then I follow rev then's car back home, but before back, he bring me to St.Thomas's leaders gathering...LOL...and I am the only teen in there other all is adult...><" and the owner of the house chia me eat Mishua...LOL..

Okay, today is friday, ntg much in the morning....so I straight jump to night. I went to alpha just now...so glad she also there =)....Had some small event with her made me so happy hehe^^...sry ah, I am not telling at here. Today alpha lesson is quite relevant to me. It is about how we fight against evil =)...Had so laughters and fun time hehe...so Satisfy...

Tomorrow I gonna chiong for math again..haiz...Sunday probably din go to church as it is combine service.. then Monday will go outing yay!...Okay, thats all my plans for next few days, after the outing, will focus on study ady...as Friday and Saturday got test...><" Wish me luck~~~

I will try update as much as possible..=) cya next time

Busy Busy Life, Make Me Feel Alive =)

It is week end again =)...my weekend plan is almost full...starts from Saturday, Morning went to study, >< finally can have some time sit down and have to mood to study properly...well, not much I studied, but at least got smtg =)...

afternoon go play badminton...Muhahaha, I play like "got wind" LOL, den those basketball player also playing there, >< there are few times i almost get hit by ball zzzz. I just played awhile, then rush to church for song practice =)...that time I am soaked hahaha...ntg much to write about in church ><...

night rush to Alvin's church LOL, rushing day for me hahahhaa...but I glad I went there, they invited a guest speaker, according to Alvin them, he is a miracle worker...but, I like his speech...so meaningful and most of the thing is I nvr think of =)...I cant recall every point he said...but I sure when time and situation rite, the idea will reappear =). A wonderful day end here....

Well, add in some sub stories hahaha...it is so rush, I just confirm the mt climbing form with others, den the next day need to give out ady...I dont even have the time to go photocopy LOL. den because I have no time to sms da ge, I ended up sms him around 12 am LOL...so sry >
okay, come to easter Sunday, it rain heavily in the morning>< my cloth cant dry at all...Sun pls come out or else i dun have cloth to wear liao...well, as usual, I went to church, today I am support singer, well, not too bad nor too good =)...just sing as what I can..LOL...afternoon no activity, so after lunch den go back home and sleep...den until 6pm wendy fetch me to church and join other to go to a nursing collage...Wow, th collage is so huge...for some reason, their collage life is so wonderful =)...I chat with one of the student there, he said all of them are living in hostel...so fun ><"...well, I think this will be the end of today =)....

2mr MOnday, I guess I will have Monday blue again ><...

Feelings~

Today, early in the morning, and took a look at my fb, and saw one video that my house mate shared. It is about the stages of a relationship, well, a negative one, they end up broke up...sad. yesterday, my room mate let me watch a video also about relationship, that time I already went into deep thought, add this one. I give myself an ans, "wait".

As long as I can remember, I always have this thought "it is not wrong to tell other my feelings" but, after telling some feelings, I need to take responsibility. some feelings are to much for other to carry.

My ans "wait", is because I dont wan another tragedy. Ntg much I can offer to her, there is no reason I need to make her mine. Her life is much better like this. Thats what I thought.

Maybe, other will ask me, what about "what she think?", maybe, I will selfishly say, what ever she think,the result still the same. arrr...I duno, I seriously duno...I just dont wan her to feel bad, sad, confused, lost or unhappy...I just want her to be happy...I wish i can know what she think ><"


well, as for now, I will just let it be...I lost~~

I and We,,,Friends...

Friends are bring together by a special fate....when we around each other, we no need to wear a mask; we can be our true self, because everyone can accept who are we. we shared everything, joy, laughters, secrets, tears, anger, gossips and the most important one, memories and every moment we spent tgt.

Unhappiness among friend is unavoidable, but it usually is short and reasonable. we are still human, we will do wrong from time to time. For me, it is not big deal that my fren said a wrong thing that offended you. At the most, I will show them a unhappy face, and they can get it right away and stop what they doing.

As a fren, of coz we cannot sit still after knowing our own dear fren walked the "wrong path". we sure will voice out our advice or critics just to help them get back on track. then those friend will just listen and accept wad with said. no feeling hurting, no feel insulted or what ever. Thats friend, we critics because we care.

Fren will have fun teasing each other...fren will back another fren up when they are in trouble. Fren is precious, and can never be replaced. Treasure your friend, dont let them get hurt.

Sushi!!! xDDD

Today is tuesday...Sushi king is in promotion...rm 2 for most of the sushi xDDD....this is not the 1st time they doing it...but it is the 1st time i get this chance to eat sushi for so cheap xDDD....

I went there around 4.30pm with aaron, alvin and jian siang...not much ppl Q+ing...we wait awhile den can go in ady....at the end, I finished 9 plates of sushi ...burp...excuse me..xD...this is the 1st time i can eat sushi until so satisfy...hehehe.

after that, I join rocky them went in again...but this time, I go in just to drink tea...they siao one, spam wasabi like water...><. I saw many ppl from my school at there....and saw some pretty girls too hehe...

should I buy her a　Bracelets　as b.day present?...I so wish my feeling can deliver...><

well, ntg much to write about sushi already...hmm, Maybe I will talk about things I encounter today...

well, the most serious one is one of our friend get so upset with our gang...well, I think the main reason is not with us leh...I already trying our best to help liao...dont say that we are taking advantages. I also duno what to say liao....

sry for the mood killing story ><...actualy, there are more depressing story...I decided not to share at there...=)

I think I will end here...ntg to talk about....

Another week~

awww...Holidays over...and another week have passed...happy or sad, it was a fulfilling week...=)

This week is like another typical school week for me, on week days, Morning I will be in school, night time basically will stay at home. but for wed of this week, I went to bible study =)...It was good. den friday went to alpha as usual, the only difference is elmer got go=)...den saturday went to school in the morning, and get a free pizza hut meal for lunch thanks to duckie =)..afternoon went to church for song practice, den night went to a church member's house warming. then for today, Sunday, went to church in the morning, have youth time in the afternoon. and I basically sleep all the rest of the time..haha..messed up my bio time again. LOL

Although I lost my passion to do any homework, I still force myself to do abit abit...seriously, my weeks are so not productive compare to others ><, especially my math, already lacked few chapter behind.

yesterday was the day of election for Sarawak...now i found myself weird by get all exciting over result. as it doest have much to do with me. weird me.. xD...

Talking about weird, I wonder I got weird myself out by asking random question to her, some more at random time..LOL...so wish I can be myself when I am around her...seriously, I dont scare to let her know, I only scare the consequence ..haiz, I really duno what to do.

Life is hard, but we can make it trough together...Accept everyone with open mind, dont judge, dont compare, everyone is different and special in their own ways. Be glad they are them =). Reach out your hands to those who needed help, doesnt matter if nothing much they can offer back...My friend told me, the smile on their face, is the greatest gift from those whom we help. Don't mind much you have given, remember how much you have received.

God gave us the ability to communicate, use it wise and we will never be alone...no one want to be alone, nor deserve to be. I know it is hard, but the walls between us can be break down by cares and greet. Treasure anyone that have been honest to you...remember those who confronted you without wearing mask. These are true friends that are so rare and almost extinct.

Don't complain the world is messed up, but put effort to make it a better place...It doesn't matter u do it all by yourself, at least you fighting for what you feel right. =)....oh no, suddenly have so much idea come into my mind....I think I shall stop here, looking forward to another week =) with everyone.

1 week holidays ^^

today is the 1st day of my 1 week mid sem break...morning and afternoon, basically I spent my time playing badminton. I din play for quite awhile already, as last 2 week is busy preparing for test...so today's performance is not as expected ><"

while I am writing this, I am waiting for my fren to fetch me to church...every Saturday night I will go there for song practice...=)...but since last month I found another reason to go there...hehe...

well, lets talk about my Plans for this holidays, Kays, for today and tomorrow, basically is like usual weekends...saturday morning and afternoon play badminton, night go church, den sunday morning and afternoon will at church, and night for this week will go 101 for keith meeting hehe...

kay, fun part start on monday, monday i will go permai rain forest for a 2 days 1 night trip with 14 others...Hope it will be fun =)...then, wednesday,thusday and friday i will try to force myself to study math..>< kinda fall behind already...den, next Saturday and Sunday, I will go bau for youth alpha weekend away...look forward to it =)....kays thats my 1 week holiday's plan...

about the permai trip, I heard college group also went there, well, not sure will meet them or not...but wish them have their fun time too =)...I never been too permai before, nope it is not too bad...feeling kinda disappointed to see that, not many ppl actually wan to help out in the preparation of this trip. well, not much I can do too, but i will try my best to help out..coz few person's effort but everyone get to enjoy is kinda not good. opss..holiday should not say some depressing thing...><

well, I guess I need to stop here...drag on only will led to more complains >< hehe...good days everyone..cheers!

These few days~~

Waa, this week is so busy~~..3 test on the same weeks... luckily I still manage to prepare...hehe. Next week gonna have one more test, den is Happy time =)...My Uni life is getting more and more interesting..Maybe because mind opened back?? o.O..

Well, told some of my close fren and my cousin about "her"...thats the 1st time i share these kind of things with other people in my whole life...but, my feeling is not yet confirm..so just let it be? Tried to talk to her few times but fail, sometimes even get hurt by her...>< I am so fragile LOL...I think some of my word when i talking to her is kinda harsh too..i duno why will be like this ><" (want to know who is "her", ask me personally ba) hehe

Kays, NOW gonna write about ANTS...I so damn hate ants..but i think they love me...wherever i go, they followed...they share same food with me...even i din invite them...wth!!!....they even give me "kisses" when i sleeping and next morning i get a bump, and it is so itchy...

These few days, I saw so many facebook spam from another website...some is for over 18 de...>< It is kinda embarrass when other saw my page have that kind of wall post...haiz...

Duno why, these few days, I read news using my phone alot...Maybe I concern about the situation of my favorite country I think~~...Or Grow ups tent to be love to read news? I not sure, but it is not a bad thing to do rite?

Since alvin and evan invited me to go college group's gather, every friday I will go to my school G block seven floor to hear a "talk"(duno what appropriated word to use) about leadership, I enjoy the talk alot...and i glad I gain some more nice fren from college group =) It is great to surround by frens ^^

Opened up =)

Lots of thing have happen...In this world as well as on me. Lets talk about the world...1st, mass killing case in some middle east country is so heart breaking. I wonder they treat human life as what? I was so uncomfortable after knowing the news. Then recently, just few day before, my favorite country Japan was strike by a level 8.9 earthquake and follow by the deadly tsunami..SAD!!! Human are so puny when come against nature, People, please love our mother earth.

Now, talk about things happen on me ..=)...basically is about my life. it is not some depressing story, but some heart enlighten one hehe. now, I can say that my life is optimize. On week day, Morning study, evening gym or play badminton, night rest and stay connect with frens. I really enjoy my life! well, sometime laziness still kidnap me, I still trying my best to get rid of it.

On weekend, I usually spent most of my time in church. Friday night I will got to youth alpha, Saturday night I go church for songs practice, Sunday morning is service and afternoon is youth activity^^. Other then go to church, Saturday morning and afternoon I will go play badminton...I kinda addicted to badminton hehe. Anyone interested to play with me?

Ok, now talk about the title of this blog post, Opened up, I basically is mean I escape from the claw of emo and heartaches den open my heart back to the world. What I wan to say is about the feeling and things I feel. When ppl is happy, good things will come along and vice versa. During the "dark age" of my world, I feel that no one understand me, no one really care, but now, I can confidently say all of that are false!...My frens and family care, they never forget me =), the problem is myself who close my own hear from them.

Life is beautiful, I am not talking about some people's life, but everyone's...life maybe is unfair, but trust yourself to live over it or even change it. Gambateh Minna, watashi no tomotachi.

New Sem, New Me~~~

Minna san, tadaima...well, now is already going to last day of 2nd week. My burning study passion almost gone off...thats bad...><

Good thing is, I can leave those lovely loverly couple feeling aside...Cursed me for about one year...I think i need to wait awhile to touch back those thing...

Hehe, I should be doing my homework now, but I am here...facing the screen, with my headset budded in my ears enjoying the songs again and again =)...

My peaceful life, think over many things and wider view, accepting things are as they are as well as ppl...life is easier and yet complicated. Dealing with lots of peoples are hard, but I cant back off, its a path I must take to grow up.

All I can do is try my best, and hope other can understand my lacks. I mean, I am not God or some perfect guy, I am a human too, I am not perfect...I fail and I stand back up and learn to not fall at the same spot...thats life.

Yea, sometime is depressing to see other fail to meet my expectation...but I think they doing for the best at that situation...What for I go and blame them? I cant gain anything from it but instead losing something I hold dear? Losing the precious friendship? If I go cheer them up or help them up will be better? well, I so wish everyone can be like this...at least everyone can be happy.

I don't know what other chasing in life, money? happiness? love? dreams? or just passing time? I pursuing my dream, a dream to live in a peaceful place without hatred everyone trying their best to help each other.

The smile on all of your face mean so much to me, the your laughters echo in my hearts leaving behind is those sweet memories we shared. Every thing about us, i swear I will hold dear and never let go...because of you all, I lived on and fight hard =)...

Thx god for letting me open my heart up after those hard time, these few day, i keeping some old fren in touch, a simple greeting is saving the sinking friendship...I am so enjoy my life now, I glad my oldself is back, only the good self hehe...

but some fren changed so much, some I hardly talk to them...they are like went and lived in a diff world than me ><...but I try my best to accept your new self, but I wont forget your oldself =)...because that was you too...

Live on, be understanding and smile =)...life is beautiful

成长，人身，世界 和 我

小时候，很想快点长大，不想被人控制。现在，是个懂事的青年，渐渐的要脱离大人们的怀抱了。面对着这复杂的世界，心想着我能活下去吗？心里有无限的担心，害怕。开始不想长大了，但也知道不能逃避，在挣扎。

青年的我，是个日本动漫迷，借此也学了很多东西。人身和世界！

人身，小孩时，单纯的我们，或在大人给的温暖世界。无忧无虑的，充满欢笑声，简简单单的。青少时，开始能看到外面的世界，但还是受着大人们的保护。天真的我们，还是能疯狂。不用去担心那外面的世界变得怎样，只顾着自己和身边的事物，那游戏要怎样完？谁和谁恋爱了，谁失恋了等等的事。自己失恋了，要生要死的，一点都没发现这在外面的世界根本不算什么。或许，外面的世界没那么恐怖吧？我也是个青年，我没活在其中。

还记得，2008年，年尾，我学着别人也开始了自己的一段恋情。发展了一年多，就这样没了。第一次有这样的打击，不知该如何面对。生活搞得一团糟。那时，想了许多，也学了很多，慢慢的又爬起来了。把目标找回来了，该忘的也忘了。可以再次奔驰了，向着这陌生的世界，我不想逃避。管他会不会跌倒，只想奔驰去追求那飞翔的感觉。就算一个人也要征服自己眼前的一切。这是梦想吧？说的容易，但我不想只说。希望我这想法不再动摇了，真的要好好努力了。

不想再为着那改变不了的过去，忘了眼前那可以变得更好的未来！相信自己可以就好了吧。=）

回来了^^

差不多一个月没写了，原因是我的网络的信号太差了，上网要很费工夫。这些日子里都在看动漫，每一部都带着意义，学了很多，有些事也想通了。我想这次放完假回去，会好好的去学习了。想回去，我浪费一年多时间在挣扎。虽然，现在还不是很稳定，但至少找回斗志了。

农历新年的假期过了，很多人都回去工作和学习了。接下来的节日应该是情人节吧，到时，处处都写着情人节快乐，对我来说还很讽刺哦，又要一个人过了的我。安慰的话也不用说了，钱包穿洞，好过心穿洞吧？谁会想要孤单一个人啊？但孤单也要过日子叻，没办法啊。唉！

哎呀，不理了啦。这么久没发泄了！但是来来去去，还是她。现在忽冷忽热的，都不知她在想什么。想到她，那讨厌的感觉又来了。唉，谁叫我这么没用？想了很多“为什么就放不下她？”的答案，自己都乱了啦！没办法啦，认命了。水瓶座的命运？破碎的瓶子，就算补好了，还是有痕的。现在，不完美了，谁要啊？到最后只好躲在角落，以免去拖累人家。做好自己就好了。

说实话，我真的不知道，那“乐观我”和“悲观我”的仗要打到几时。很累啊，跟自己打。连在写着这个都在打。唉！该死的脑子，去想什么“我像没有月亮的星空一样，没了主角，但还是能发出灿烂光彩”，“光彩个头啊？想没了太阳的地球才对，一片黑暗。" 就这样打个没完没了。

我又要换话题了，我越来越讨厌上面子书了，一，看到自己曾喜欢的人，一个一个都有令一半了，心很不舒服啊。二，那些情侣公开的打情骂俏，不理别人的感受的。唉！没办法啦，什么种人都有，管不了这样多！静静离开就好了。

以前的我，好天真啊，想要和全世界的人做朋友。大了，看世界看多了，看到那些种种歧视，不公平的事。不用说全世界啦，那些事，身旁就一大堆了。就因着别人而努力，而牺牲的人，还剩多少个？处处为别人着想的人，在这时代能坚持到几时？

我的问题不回完的啊！脑子就是喜欢没事找事做。。。=_=”该停歇了，写不完的啊我的问题

My holiday..

My holiday already pass about 1 month...all I did is nothing...LIFELESS days..><"...should have listen to mom and go take a job =="

well, all i do in pass few day is Morning: Online Night: Anime or Game ~~~~ well, I did help out my parent abit..ABIT xD...

well, My lifeless life got nothing to talk about...I shall talk about anime...in this one month..I finished 6 anime...all very meaning full except for one..I really dun get whats the point they make that anime =="...

because of that anime I learn a lot..and had some think trough...Hope those feeling can stay in my mind...=)...

I have lots of dreams...I really hope I can chase them all...but for now, I just wanna learn more...Not matter how much I dun wan to grow up, be mature..one day, I have to too..cant escape...so, I thought, why dun make it more meaning full? more content.. (wish this thinking can last)

My Life~

Din Update few days ady....the reason is >>>>My broadband's plan had been changed..I hardly use the internet at nite....beside that, I found another blog system which is so awesome =) >>tumblr....

K..These few day I din any thing special actually...Just slacking at home, watch Anime and movie...Finished, Code Geass..Season 1 and 2
...
As they said..It was awesome!! =)...xD, But is hard to impress an Aquarius....
Den just now just finish watching G-Force...

o.O Damn funny =) and cute =3...LOL, and I wonder the theory they said about the animal is true or not...

Beside online and Movie..I played NFS Most Wanted..Well, haven finish it, Honestly..I prefer NFS carbon...=) no offence...

Well, this is pretty much of my holiday life...Now await CNY coming =)...More funs to go...after CNY, Need back to study ><"...but no choice, cant lose behind...And I think i can fully concentrate...as i quited Maple =)..sry maple frens and family...I sure i will really miss u guys..another reason is because of her =)

Speaking of her....My heartache finally over =)...because she is back, as a FRIEND...Complete let down..phew, like unloaded a super heavy load..Thx You so much...and Thx god =)..After all, Friend still the best...

Oh ya..This picture which i found in Tumblr..

This Is pretty much I have been trough with her...Well, 2nd round i guess...I sure tis time will stop at Friend...Cross my heart..=)...

Today~

Today..2nd day of 2011...It is special not just because it is 2nd day...Is because is my mom's b.day^^...and is sunday

K..start from morning..early in the morning..7 am..woke by mummy..==" coz need send didi go airport..I wanna sleepp..but i went anyway..

b4 go airport..we go mum mum 1st...we had our breakfast at Hai wai tian (fo shang)..the foods there not bad lar..=)

K reach airport, KK terminal 2..specially for Airasia..

1st thing to do, go verify the boarding pass...as my didi ady online checked in yesterday..and he dun have baggage to check in..There we go, skip the line and just ask for a chop, den the person at counter say, go line up.. WTH? den my didi online check in is like useless??

K, thats the bad part =(...good part is, I met some old frens =)..some, but i talked to one only, my childhood best friend..still so yeng as last time..LOL...

After that, we go to church...Met, My aunt, uncle and cousin there =) they are from kudat LOL...well, ntg much to talk about in church..k, skip =)

After Church, we go town, planned to bank in those house rental fees..but WTH, town full of people, no parking...GIVE UP..><"

Changed our course to Inanam as there also have many banks =)...and had our lunch at there...kinda bo hua de lunch =="...

Den go back to fo shang to buy daddy's new paper (weekly routine that never changed)==", den go back town again to buy present for mummy..LOL..

1st go wawasan 2020...go Parkson there find bag...den mummy realize she still have a new bag haven use LOL?

den mummy say wan go wisma, buy new sun glass...o.O..but end up no buying any sun glass but go into tongs..and buy daddy de cloth..LOL? present forget Liao..

after that go back home...I am so tired ==" and stomach pain...and i sleep for the rest of the afternoon...

Yeah, daddy promises to bring us to go steamboat tonite ^^..we went to kampung nelayan..as didi went there last few day and say he eat till vomit..==" ...

There offer a buffet + steamboat package..rm30++ per pax..nice =)...I wanna take picture, but i forget to bring my phone zzz...the surrounding very nice...quite comfortable..and it is on a lake..=)...the food still ok lar..not super good, but reasonable for that price la...had a great time =)...

I think, the rest of my day end up with i sit in front of comp till I sleep..as usual!