My life today...

Today, I unusually woke up at 7 =="...well, not by myself..mom woke me up...the reason is I need to accompany dady go kota belud later...

after wash up, I drove to "wang city"(a kopi tiam) to have breakfast..with mommy and bro =)..den go to shop to meet dad...

Then off we go..only me and dady to kota belud, bro and mom stay at shop. Well, it is a short trip..1 hour and plus...we reach our client places to unload the goods..=) (forget to mention, we go kota belud is to deliver the goods to our client =))...

After that, dady let me drive..YAY..he asked me to drive to Tuaran...><", I duno the way, but i just drive anyway..everything went smoothly..

Is like few minutes, we have tuaran town in sight...well, dady ask me to stop someway to change driver...because, tat town is like dun have traffic law at all...the road is meant for Ppl..not car..well, not big deal..xD

K, after that we stop at "Tuaran Mee restaurant"


Yea..like the Restaurant's name suggest..they sell Tuaran mee =)...One of Sabah's special food...


It is a type of fried noodles..Taste pretty good =)..and the restaurant is crowed ><"
den i did a weird acting by taking photo of the shop's sign board..everyone staring at me...zzz..nvm, wad done has done..=)

Treated our stomach, den we set our course back to KK...My turn to drive again muhaha..

K, skip the driving part..ntg much to talk about...after reach shop, I drive again><" this time i drive mom's car..drive bro and mom go lunch LOL...this time, we go Inanam "kiong kee" It is near the bus station...well, I din take any picture this time xD...

More food for me..hehe...and I noticed got another "Tuaran Mee Restaurant" at Inanam..just opposite "kiong kee" LOL?...I wonder if they under the same owner...

K..I spent the whole afterNoon sleeping..the end..xD...Piggy life =)

Prefect's Reunion~

Just came back from Prefect's Reunion...=)...IT WAS FUN^^ wish the nite nvr end =)...

Well, start from morning...wake up, den went to lido pasar with mom and bro...long time din go liao..=)...den after that...go back home..continue sleep after breakfast..xD I sure is a pig xD...

ntg much to say for afternoon...coz i was sleeping the whole afternoon...the only thing worth mention is night...Prefect re-union..xD

I arrive early, (actually is on time, other is late ==")...walked around in school...ntg much change...den go back sit at prefect board...recalling those year when i was prefect..sweet memories..=)

I chatted with some prefects..some i knew them, some i dont..hehe =)...den i moved to the hall as the party is starting soon...saw some old frens..I sure miss them ><"...we still goof as usual xD>>youth!

well, I danced with girls ..hehe...but duno who are them..LOL..

after the party, i went "yam cha" with prefect of my batch!...==" like last time, they like to play with they foods and drinks...they go mix up the drink..wth...after that, desmond send me home..thx des..=)..

Memories =)...sweet and bitter...

Late~~

Haha...like the tile said...It is late now..almost 2am and i still in front comp...blogging..Just finish reading Rave Master manga...Super nice anime!!!! Not regret reading it..=)...

Well, lets say about some thing i did for today...Pros say recall what you did for the whole day before you sleep will enhance memory..=)..

K, morning..wake up (skip the wash face part) den drive bro and mom go shop to take mom's ic from dad and put bro's laptop to shop at the same time...den go the kopitiam where just outside the "ark" to have breakfast. Den go to church's office..coz bro gonna be baptize this sunday, pastor wan to brief my bro..

Den go back shop again ~.~ coz dad wanna go out..we keep go back tc shop...den i forget what time ady..is like around 11pm..dady back..den here i go again..xD, mom say wan go survey buy smtg..there we go..1st we go pizza hut to have lunch..den go survey...^^ i get some new cloth for CNY in the mean time..hehe...

Well, tis year, the cloth survey selling is kinda expensive and "ugly", so mom ask me to go "fu chow gong hui" to take a look...Well, sry for the confusion..acutally is "nugkee" or wad so ever ==" <<
after eat the coconut pudding..wash the dish..i went for a nap..tat time is around 4 pm ><"...den around 8 if i not wrong..i wake by dady..ask me go dinner...well tonite is dong zhi...mom did cook abit special..yummy =)..after dinner..i do the dish..den "tum"** I sit infront computer until now xD...

I read Rave master manga, while fb and twitter...and beat Steve at Kick the Pigeon..xD..oh ya..did go manage my enrolment thing just now...tonite is quiet..not much ppl find me...

2mr is prefect 35th reunion party...<<<35th wth, since when??? well, hopfully can meet some old fren there...and there is someone i really wanna meet =)...and ouch..the ticket is kinda exp for me >< rm 35..NOOO!!!

K, gonna sleep liao...good nite all..2mr shall blog about my wishes and dreams of 2011..

Rainy day~

Just went out to have lunch with family at lido pasar...I put on all hope for this time go out to let myself feel better after that something happen in twitter..

After we order something...dady saw an uncle, "wondering" at there..LOL..den dady ask him to sit down and have dinner tgt...==" wad a weird uncle...for me, i will say, he got no sense of humor or lack of ability to socialize..LOL xD...

Well, this "outing" din make me feel well ==" not becoz of tat uncle..but the rainy day...

Ntg much i can do..just keep a distance and wait...=)

Holiday START!!! ^^

Well, Just come back Sabah yesterday =)...Reach KK about 7 pm, the plane delayed about 30 min...but still i arrive safe and sound...

Just reach KK, Str8 go party..OH YEAH^^...My jr class reunion party...I glad i manage to attend...Had a fun time..although the food is kinda expensive for me T.T

today is the 2nd day...basicall, i was at outside whole day...gonna enjoy more ><"

back to sabah is good..but, i prefer late abit come back..coz I WANNA JOIN caroling at kuching...arrr...Next Year I defiantly wont miss it liao!!

Shall change my blog design again =)..working half way..

Acknowledge~

I not sure other, but I am sure I need someone to acknowledge me..><"..I need them to prove my value, and existence...kinda pathetic..

Actually, i just realize it...b4 that, I miss took as I need someone to accompany..well, I think i will get over the feel soon..I hope...

Or maybe, I am attention seeking...well, I duno, and i dun wanna K anymore..I dun K, I dun k..pls dun K...

Well, I am not in the mood to write actually..i never wish to let anyone else know i turn back and become like this, i have not choice to vent it at here....but this time i think by 2mr i will be ok =)...

Exam Exam >

Today is the 1st day of this sem final exam ><" 1st subj "Energy and motion"...Well, It went smoother than I ever imagine =)...hehe..

Exam of next subj will be on 10 of Dec, I kinda have confident on that subject..not metioning HD...My confident is about passing xD...if i try hard enough, I may get a "D"?? Maybe =)

After exam, I went to spring with Jeffery and Elmer...Objective: buy Christmas present =)...bought a headset as present..hehe...

Well, these days, I started to play twitter...Maybe it was a bad idea to start during exam period ><"...well, at least i not so out date LOL!

><"...Maybe I should end her..back to study (hopefully) ...and I miss Her(s) LOL!

An Aquarius..

From all the article I read about Aquarius... most of them say that, Aquarius is Unique..In the negative side of saying of Aquarius is weird.

Well, recently I feel that i hardly keep any conversation open...whenever I talk, the conversation tend to cold down...I maybe thinking too much..or really is thinking too much ><"...in fact I have to admit that Aquarius is lack of socializing skills...

I do proud of my talents..even though no one acknowledged them..maybe my laziness covered them up. I have to get rid of the damn laziness to let my talents shine again...but how?

Robots competition finally over^^, my team's robot get third place..quite happy with it^^, other than happy, I feel like dun wan the competition end...It is so fun! and our robot is still have lots of potential haven shown ..arr..k! must let go =)

Watched 1 and half movies these 2 days....haha, weird way to watch movie, who will watch half movie ==" but I have no choice...at 1st ah soon, elmer and I went to watch skyline..but watch half way the film snap! o.O ...tat explain for the half movie...then the cinema give us 4 open ticket as apologizes. so, the next day, we 3 and even went to watch Rapunzel^^...thumbs up!! Disney never let me down..It is so nice, even though it just a 1 and half hour movie, but i feel like 3 hour inside...and Rapunzel is super cute when her hair is short!

The nite of the same day, I went for zhe yii birthday party...well it is more like a gather..anyway, is the same..=P..and once again I order another food that is totally not worth! =="..I am so noob when come to order western food, next time gonna wait for other order 1st. that nite i spent RM36.40 just for a dinner..ouch!! thats the money I use for 3 days meals! Gonna save money ~~ =)

er..kinda off topic..well, just treat it as 2 in 1 post xD..Exam coming, fun time over..Study mode on!! (laziness still get in the way ==")

Today~~

Today, is a typical Tuesday for me..free at morning, class at afternoon. Usually i will wash my cloth every Tuesday,but due to the cloth hanging place is occupied and the sky din seem so good, well, i guess i leave the washing for tomorrow ><"..in my closet, left the last set of clean cloth~~~pls have a good weather tomorrow >
Arr...kinda ashame to say this out...I actually wasted whole morning, doing NTG !!!...facebook~~guitar~~~movie..wth!!!..well, exam is at next month, but i ady can smell it =3=!!, in my heart is scare and worried after looked to those sux tests result >
K, another ashame thing...I plan to study EMO (energy and motion) after today's class...but, evil me:(is gonna rain soon, ltr u cant go bek home, now is the chance, Melvin offer to bring u back~), angle me:(u plan to study, dun waste time at home...at home u sure play comp)...at the end, evil win..NOOO!!! well, at least din win all, changed my plan to study with Melvin after tomorrow class..this time, cant let evil in again..>O

Well, wad the angel say is true..i go bek home, start prepare abit things for dinner, den face comp all the time...dean wolf start to say: tonite zak~~~coz 2mr patch...wth T.T bb study time xD...yea, finish zak, den dc LOL, k, off maple den go bath...after bath...guess wad...I am here writing..LOL!!!...gonna go slp le..hope 2mr can early wake to wash cloth...

MOTIVATION and DETERMINANT where are U!!!!???? TEMPTATION damn you, pls disappear in front my eyes!!!

The feeling~~

This few week..really busy, and stress...

When a time like this come, in my heart the ego of a gf to tc me will appear...

I spend many time, involve in many things, enjoying my life outside virtual world...well, by doing tis, temporary make me forget that feeling..TEMPORARY~~

My fon is quiet for few weeks or months..i duno, din count the date, but this few day, it start to be noisy again...I really miss those time, those when fon is noisy time, every msg inside is so warm..i feel tat i am not alone...but i wish, those time nvr come back..at lease come back with different ppl...

My picture of life, got some shaded part which i wish it nvr there...and i glad it is there...Yea, i am being contradict..there are reasons behind...i duno how to explain..I not sure what i wan, In my heart, I miss them, I wish they come back, but in my brain, I dun wish to get into dejavu, I dun wish there are more shade area in my picture...

My life has changed, compare to last time, but not totally...My life now is more contained..Is more den virtual world..but still, virtual is part of it...cant possible 100% get rid of it..but i wish can minimize it..at lease, my next gf is not virtual..is someone who i can hug and feel her warmness..

Tonite is cold..

她~

忙啊忙啊，终于可以停下来喘气了^^。。

大学生活，比我想象的还精彩^^。。感谢神！

她回来了，变了另一个人。。有点难相处，她想太多了吧。。顺起自然就好。

分手后，好一段时间没联络，都不知她过得怎样，经历了什么。

每错，我现在过得很好，不是我拥有了什么或谁，是我学会了放下和原谅。这一却都是神赐的，应满足。^^

Precious gift~

Today is 25 of Oct...another month ending soon...

Time passes very fast when we busy...This few week i am so busy..busy with church things, study and so and so..Busy until i rarely can on maple..well, should be is a good thing xD

I went through so much things..and manage to go through...thanks god for all of them..Now still have few lab reports and assignments on hand..and the study ><...

This sem, i feel that is alot better than last sem...i feel that my time is fully utilize..i din waste much of my precious time..and i learn cooking xD^^

My life is colored up with many different kind of color...Not much is spoiling the picture...I learn cooking, I learn guitar, I made new frens, I get rid my old emo self.

So many things have changed..so do people..somehow, I really miss everyone...back then..a "special one" told me.."even we are far apart, but we still Under the same sky" <<
The world is beautiful when love is around, the love that god granted for us..our most precious gift~

><" 10/10/10 's story

ON 10/10/10, i seriously have a nice day^^ morning went to church, afternoon go bek home rest awhile, den night go out to Pullman and have a nice dinner and smooth presentation^^

Everything is fun, except one thing, after i saw it, my heart pain ><...its is during night time, when we all enjoying our wonderful dinner. Seriously, i don't think organizing a grand dinner is a wise idea...
well, i will say is a nice idea to WASTE FOODs
seriously, everyone is considering their image, they try to don't take the last piece no matter how they wan to. That not all, because of caring their image, they try to don't eat so much and rather the food to be waste...tis is not What GOD wish to see.

The night was fun after all^^ had a great time with friends and foods..lol xD..

Now after Alan's house, hehe, tired xD but still wan play comp hehe..

Mind sets to have a hapi life^^

1. Forgive and Forget
We are humans, we are imperfect, so is OK for us to have mistake...Its true that some ppl's attitude really pissed u off, but when think the other way round, why don't forgive him and forget what he did. This will bring happiness for both party. Well, I never say forgive and forget is easy, but still possible^^

2. Be Thankful
When people did something good on you, be sure to say "thank you". Maybe you will think that is not a big deal, but is really matter for the people, at least let them know you appreciate what they did. A "Thank You" will encourage ppl to do more kindness^^

3. Be Kind
Help ppl when ever you have the ability to do it, even it is really troublesome. You will never know when you will be in trouble, and that time you may need their help. WHO KNOW? Be Kindness to everyone^^ You will be hapi when you see them smiling becoz of what you did.

4. Smile often
When you bump into some frens..be sure to give them a big wide smile^^, they will smile back and you will feel hapiness flying around xD

5. Be optimistic
When bad things happen, look at the bright side. Amplify the good part, minimize the bad part ^^.

6. Sharing
Share what you have, instead to have it on ur own...^^


kays lets simplify this...Just be nice to everyone, and look on things with a happy mind^^

It come back^^

Well, this week Is not as bad as i think xD...Monday got test, well should be no big prob with It

Kays..main point xD..We found back Tudo!!...it was at last night, it crying at a construction site which located at the back of our house...Khar Kim can recognize its crying den went out and take a look..everyone follow..^^ Is It..after 5 day, it come back...^^

We scare it will run away or be taken away, so we lock it up in house..but poor tudo..it cant go outside to poop..instead, it poop in front elmer and i's room door..wth...really hate us that much?

Ytd, i get my netbook..^^ yay...still trying to install some program...hehe..with that net book..i discover another fun thing about my fon...just now when in math class...is the 1st time i use my handphone as modem via bluetooth to online..xD NICE!!

hehe...excitement never end^^

My life~~

Since I break with her, My Phone is quiet all the time..except sometimes go church fren wan to inform me on something.

I guess, My life go into another stage...or rolled back~~sometimes I enjoy being alone...sometimes I feel that I am Lack of something~~

When think properly, I am sure I am not ready to accept anyone yet...I wan to, but I am not ready...Dun wish to break anymore hearts...

This semester, I am more hardworking compare to last semester..at least by abit...><"..
well, everyday I still mapling, FB and Anime ><" but I still got touch my notes..AT LEAST abit xD( I trying to control myself)

Kays...batter go to study now...TEST is at MONDAY..running out of time again ><"

'Oh no!!! Not again ><"

Arrrrhhh, Guess wad...today is Thursday, i should be no class but i still go to school "FOR STUDY" yea..Study, den i End up in library, facing the Math notes but my eyes are on the computer screen. =="...well, some maybe will think that I am looking at lecture slides...in fact, I am not?? xD I was In FB!! and Maple forum...omg~~~

Next Monday, I have MOS and MATH TEST!!! but for now, my preparation is like only 10%? =="...

Well, well, should i be positive? xD "Abit is better than nothing" haha, i guess this sound more like an excuse than positive thinking.

Human is hard to accept change, and this is one thing that I hard to overcome=="...but Things around us is changing from time to time...sometimes, i read some of the post in fb that my dear Frens posted...i had a feeling that they changed, then a weird feeling make me feel like i am scare to contact back with them.

Ar..Gonna stop writing now ==" Math~~~~time =="

Yay~~

Blog redited ><", well I am more satisfy with this one compare to the previous one ^^...At least tis one is more cheerful..

Well, well, well...Not much special event happen in my life in the past few days...Class, Home, church...repeating^^

Ntg much to talks abt for now ><"...so sry..xD

><" shouldn't have tis feeling

Today is Monday, I purposely wake up earlier to prepare for my struc test. Well, I am not the type that will str8 go into study.

I opened my fb den start browsing around...den I read her status>< In her status, she is writing for another person...

Well, for now she is just a ordinary online fren for me..but why i have the uneasy feeling zzz stupid of me.

I guess i will be better afterward when i am in school^^

and btw, I maybe will change the design of my blog again >< not satisfy with the current one...but i wont be close down the blog when updating the design..i try do everything in one go.

(the morning sky that is just outside my window is so beautiful) ( random) just a sudden feel, at 2nd though its not a beautiful as u think..hahah..shall continue my study >< running out of time..

Should Stay at Home Whole day =="

Now only i realize, Stay at home whole day and doing useless things will make me crazy =="

Too free to think those unnecessary things, but I still glad the chance i staying at home doing ntg is less than last time xD....

Well, for now...live well w/o another half^^...not like last time, sms every day..now my fons are quiet..only parent will call me around nite time..hehe

Life is great, The only matter where u stand to view it...hehe, can say tat, i am enjoying life now, even i still studying..my "enjoy" is not like after retire den always play around or travel around...My "enjoy" is be glad tat i can walk trough everyday with new things around^^ even it is a small one~~

Hehe~~ya hor..some frens complain that i din post any picture..well, i just duno wad to put...I love to take picture, but lazy to xfer the picture i took from fon to comp..><" so sry for that..if i happen to get my hands on some really nice one..i definitely will post.

Be hapi~~^^

I Love my life^^

When i am in high school, from time to time, i will hear some senior who came back to visit us say, uni life is smtg very enjoyable and nothing to afraid abt^^

Now, I truly can feel all of the joy^^, especially, all those non local student, gather tgt like a big family, caring each other...

Although, study in uni is hard, but You dont have to face the challenges alone..we have bunch of friendly frens and SOME nice and caring lecturer..I SAID "SOME" XD!!

Hope, all my frens out there are enjoying too^^

One thing i learn from church, Use ur heart to love and care everyone around you, You will find that U will have someone doing bek as U do~

Ya, of coz life cant be so wonderful and perfect all the time~sadness still will around sometime, it is unavoidable, but u can minimize it..look at the bright side~~^^

Ya I admit that, SHE did leave a big hole in my heart. Almost everynite I will felt the emptiness...Until now, I still cant find anyone to fill in that hole perfectly, Even is herself, She had changed...zzz I Must be hapi!!! cant think so much ><" ps~~

This week, i tried quite a few of new things^^...I donated my 19 year old blood o.O for the first time^^...I actually manage to play pool^^...I build up a prototype robot in just an afternoon time^^...I forgived some person how hurt me badly^^...Now i feel that my life's value...all those i been trough, i so wish i can share with u all~~~

I wish i can try everything in the world...I treasure my life~~and my frens...and everyone's heart!!! U all mean alot to me..Those who felt down, get bek up>< i still need u~~those who flying with dream pls dun forget abt me...well, even u forget, i wont^^ Wish u all good luck~~ I think i should end now...xD haha, today i am so hapi!!

Blog theme will change soon^^ Stay tune..( I try post as much as i can)

Broke my own promise again~

I promise myself, will nvr go too deep or have high hope in love...but i failed T.T

Few day din contact le, all the pains i can clearly feel...just like tat day, the day i wish nvr was in my life...

I comfort myself with many Principe, but in the end, i lost my way.

Maybe i need to forget abt her...To love her really out of my capability to bare, But I just cant tell her...I really dun wanna hurt her...Maybe just bare it like tis, and hope her nvr find out and wish her will happy always~~

I am bek~~And tats not a good news :(

Well, Long time din write ady, coz i am doing so well...and enjoying life...

Now i am bek to kch ady, new sem!! basically dun have any stress...maybe not Yet..hahah!!

Met some new frens^^ and yea...tat is nice..

Well, go to the main point..and OMG..why i become like tis? Just like the me from last time, i tot i have changed but NO T.T...

These few day, so much have happened...good~~ bad~~blah blah blah...I bek here writing again, i guess some ady know, I am not happy...if i happy, i wont use the happy hour at here ==" well so sry to my reader (if there is any)..Maybe i should open up another blog for my happy story^^...and i Said..MAYBE haha...

Why i sad? okies, mainly becoz of her lur...My maple dear dear...I think, i went too deep again ><...keep on having high expectation from her..I TRYING TO CONTROL ><

Eh? i feel btr ady..haha..Sad things no need tell on detail hor..I think tats all..

Lastly!!! HAPPY MERDEKA DAY!!!

OH YEA!! 2mr i going FISHING!!

Hope u all enjoy^^~~

Quite awhile din update le...bek to KK ady...quite enjoying life^^ even though there are some unhapi things happened around me..but well i manage to get over them ^^

Well, My life, Maple is most of it...i Enjoying in it very much as everyone in there are friendly...I think it will took me quite awhile to quit it...^^

These few day, Love come and go around me and on me xD <33...Hapiness and sadness..well cant help it, this is life. As a fren, i oni manage to accompany those broken soul...cheer them up with some advice that some other used on me b4 xD...

I realize smtg.. human are incredible...Just believe it as i did, u sure can get through many things^^

For those who are broken and sad, CHEER UP..^^ The beautiful rainbow is just behind the stupid Black Cloud..

For those who are currently Enjoying life like wad i doing..pls share it around...Help those who need it^^...HAVE A NICE DAY

<333 U dear

Thing i have learn today~

Today...a typical Saturday...i went to watch a movie..A nice one seriously...Karate Kid...


Well as usually, I will Learn smtg in the movie...coz i like relate the story with my life...

IN Karate kid...they got say, when u fall down in life, u can choose to stand up or not...life will beat u down..but u can still get bek up...

and dun run away from problem...even is hard to face it..but after u face it and over come the problem...the problem will not be problem anymore~~

Laziness, student's worst enemy ~~

My exam is around the corner~~~

and i still siting in front comp><

i try to get my head into studies...but it wont last to half an hour.><

ppl say got 2 type of ppl, one is hardworking type, one is clever type...but i wonder, can the clever ppl be hardworking too?? o.O??

I am not sure i am in which category, but i am sure i am the lazy one ><~~

I like to enjoy life, carefree...i all wad i wan xD

Hope i can change my habit..instead of complaining..try to like all those tings which look like boring xD..

THERE IS WILL, THERE IS WAY~~

best do fall sometimess

well even u are the best in ur field, but sometimes u will have bad luck den fall...

so dun be so proud, help ppl around whenever u can and hear ppls idea~~

maybe their idea sucks..but some times u can get inspiration from them~~

everyone is equal, everyone got their strength and weakness...if u pro in this field doesn't mean u pro in every field..

there is the need to be humble~~^^

SHARING IS CARING~~

busy~~

Haiz almost exam...things are getting out of hand...i run out of time!!!and i still dont have the study mood zzzz...

Haiz...my dear cant use her fon..and her comp will sot from time to time...i getting harder and harder to stay connect with her ady...haiz

another bad thing is, my holiday start at july, she ady in her holidays now...den mean i cant pei her maple lor...haiz...

I wish holiday fast there come and slower go!!!

(just some complain to make me feel better...)

Our Melody & Memories~

Another Our pic~~

Your are my inspiration, cant do it without u <3333...

Although, with you still not so long, but i feel the sweet, hapi and ur warmness..
I promised i wont lie to you, with you i did tasted sour and pain also...

But the point is we are still together, Our memories and Melody will play in our heart go on and on.

Dear, This pic i finally done it...the words tat cheer us up when we are missing each other...I know it is simple..but i still hope u like it...

Miss you~~~

A Happy WeekEnd~

^^...I glad i filled up my time...and i enjoying it^^.

Saturday, i went to Climbing^^with church frens, MOUNT SINGAI was successfully taken down^^.

Well, along the trip, there was alots of dangers and challenges. but with each other's help we get through safely.

To be honest, This this the 1st time i climb mountain...was quite an experience...

Today at church, everyone still look good^^...We are tough !!

Den after church service, we have a short review...sharing wad we learn...da ge say, wad u did on the mountain clearly reflect the way you are in rl life. Yea tats really true...

I learn tat, we as the HUman, the creation of GOD is really amazing!!!...we are better den wad we believe...all u have to do just to believe.

WE always get reach our limit...den WE CAN GET OVER OUR LIMIT...tats human!!^^

Busy Busy Busy ~~Phewwww^^

This week is week twelve~~ A super duper busy week for me..but everytings end now^^

This week, i Went to camp until wednesday...and have a wonderfull time in there..except tat smtg unhapi lor.

On the nite i bek from camp, I ady start rushing le....coz on the next day i have 2 test and both also my weak subj..die die~~

then Friday got 2 lab report and 1 assignment due~~~haha...Now think bek, i really like robot...xD

Now relax abit, den need start to do revision ady...next week got the math test...haiz...non stop leh...and got 2 more lab report due...

2mr i going Mountain climbing..^^...kinda excited abt it. Really hope i can reach the top leh...

I Miss You~~

Dear, i am very very sorry tat i made u lost ur phone T.T I very regret din ask u faster go bek...

I know u dont like me being sad, but i cant help missing you...after tat nite, i totally lost contact with u. Everytime, all i thinking was u...i so wish at that time you are beside me...

During the camp, this is wad i did specially for u...



This is the promise, I wont regret making it...There are always smtg i cant put into words, but I still have a lots to tell u.



A green heart leaf, so young, so pure and yet so simple...does it symbolizes Our love ? A love tat can withstand any challenge like the newly born leaf?

How are you out there? Without ur news i feel extremely empty....Cant hear ur voice make me feel very lonely. I miss you, I miss ur voice, I miss ur warmness, I miss ur gentleness.

Another Tired day~~~

Hoho, today is Friday, but not ordinary Friday xD...becoz today is Wesak day, but instead going to temple, i went to church haha...

Although today is holiday, no class, i also waked at 6am...becoz we have a combine worship practise with other church worship teams for the family camp just few day to go.

It was fun^^, they all are friendly and tat makes me proud to be a Christian ^^...at 1st, we practice songs tat lead by Wendy. Total 8 songs o.O...but i oni the slide operator..so ntg to worry abt xD

den we practice songs tat leads by other church worships team ><"( i forget her name)...

after tat we went to 101 to have our lunch...stupid weather so hot zzzz...and the freaking hotness drain our energy fast enough zzz...we all tired out haiz...

haha, tats not the of my todays activity...after lunch...we went back to church to decorate the church for Anne's wedding which is at 2mr morning.

we blew a freaking amount of balloons...blow a balloon is not the hard part...tie it up really killing my finger LOL...

Yay...balloons done~~another challenge come >
In the end, we manage to get most of the decorative things on the place, except for the love shape balloons..(we gave up!)

HAHA, it is not end yet~~After that, we took a break...we all went bek home den took a nice bath ....

After having our dinner at kenyalang...we go bek to church again...haha..it's time for songs practice. well tat part is quite relax haha...just sit there and open ur mouth and sing^^

AFter practice for the wedding songs...is time for songs practice for the Sunday songs..Sunday is Youth Sunday~~well tis time not all of us involved...haha, den who ever not involved continue to decorate church..ahhh~~`

well yea...it go on until quite late...around 12am lor...

When i on the way going bek home..dear call me le ><", i cant pick up oh, i was in the car..and squeezed like sardine..haha
Dear,really sry ohh, today din pei dao you...><...but i can tell u tat i am really miss you....LOVE YOU <33333

What a tired day~~~

2mr is holiday...yay!!! but wait ><" 2mr classes replacement is on today o.O...wth~~

Originally, my schedule for today is from 8.30 am till 3.30 pm...and the replacement class is from 3.30 pm till 6.30 pm...well?? 10 hour study and brain torturing with oni one hour break. ><"

but luckily everything went smooth ~~ din like suddenly found out got homework need pass up last minute ><"

honestly, the whole day i cant focus....too tired to focus.

Dear sms me around 5 pm...well tat make me better alot^^ help me "survive" till 6.30 ^^ yay!!

Now i damn hungry..but duno wad to eat haha~~

Pizzasss ><"~

When I think bek, when is the last time i have ate a pizza...i cant tell how long is it...all iknow i ssuper looggg~~

Hoho...den i have a urge to call pizza for lunch~~den i just found out that not onli me who miss pizza hut's pizza tasty bite >< .

most of my house mate wan it ^^ as i heard b4, online ordering will be cheaper, well den i give it a try...

my 1st time ordering a thing online, well at 1st i log into pizza web site and have a view that how things work...

It was simple^^, at 1st just register an account...it oni ask u for some simple information like where u stay, ur phone number ur name like tat.

Ok, account success registered, time to look at the menu ^^ yum yum. It is quite user friendly just simply click on the menu u wan to order.

becoz, many of us wan, den we decided to have the rm99 one. with 4 large pizza, 2 garlic bread and 2 7 up revive. k click de menu, then check out... everything including price and tax is listed clearly^^ after tax is total rm 105.95.

den i print out de receipt....after awhile, around 3 min, a fon call from KL..they just wan to confirm the order..well yea^^ den after about 30min...another fon call from pizza hut kuching..LOL, they just wan to confirm de place...den ask me wait downstairs LOL...

haha, they did come after awhile...finally my lunch T.T ...We finish de pizza and everything less den 10 minute o.o wth...after we finish, oni the pizza hut there call bek to confirm de riceive...

The Theif have been found o.O??

Today is two week after the stealing case...The third week's wednesday.

AFter the 2nd case, we all are at highest alert, and expecting him visit again...and we will give him a big welcome xD. and make sure he dun wan to his home any more even he wan to LOL...

and yea...i woke up around 8 today...after clean up, den starting wan to do homework..><" bt till the half way, hunger dominated me.

well i went down stair to have my breakfast, at 1st i planing to go the Chinese kopitiam (dragon) to have it..who know, it is so crowed.

well no choice, i went to another malay restaurant (RR) to have my favorite sea food fried mee with egg sauce. Yummy~~

when waiting, i looked around. since the RR is so near my house's entrance stair, so i constantly "staring" at tat direction. but wth, the guy who make ROTI one some how got some feature matched the damn theif.

He got long sideburns, Hairy arms o.O though body build o.O about the same height o.O almost same hairstyle o.O

I got every reason to suspect him.

1st: he is near~~ o.O
2nd: he familiar with our time~~ o.O (seeing us go and bek everyday)
3rd: he familiar with the building structure and design at here~~ o.O (he worked here even b4 we rent the unit)
4th: he can move around without being suspect o.O (everyone seeing him around everyday ><")
5th: his liar is near o.O (he can hide those goods he steal in a short time)><"

when having my yummy noodles...hehe i turned on my fon's camera and place it on the table..and start recording xD ltr see if can compare to the cctv's video and match de dog face of his...hope he get busted damn thief. waiitt~~and I am so stress of my homework now T.T really hope can release all on to his body xD fist getting itchy~~

Melody of Our Memories~

^^...Our Melody kept all Our memories...everything is so sweet.



at the nite of 25 may 2010...after view the those pic i made, Dear say is the heart bigger will be better??

well here is it^^




and den she go edit some other Photo o.O







Pro dear !!! those are animated picture ><"but i post at here like not moving liao wasted dear de talent T.T sry dear


Dear we need go take more photo den go play again^^ Opening a new blog for our melody tat will nvr end. <3 u dear~~

Our Melody~

Long time no edit Picture ady~~~

Just a few day ago^^ A new love story started in Maple ><....well here it is...



The love life of me(hapi) and Pinky^^

Here is another one^^



Well, Honestly i still not so stratify with those designs, i think will change again when i have inspiration. <3 you dear~~

Another Wednesday~

Well Last Wednesday was not a good day~~the day thief strikes again; 2 laptops gone, and RM200...poor roommate T.T

Today, another Wednesday, Most of us wake early on the purpose to welcome the thief^^ Hope he show up and we beat him out of his ass, yay^^...(If he really so stupid till qualify entering the world record ><")

Ltr, oni got 2 hour math lecture, hope i wont fall asleep again~xD, those math always so confusing, need turn a big round to understand it, walao eh, tats not it, the lecturer teach like the speed of sound, most of us cant catch up, den have a @@ face haha.

After that, i plan to camp at the library there finish up my math exe, ~not even the class is fast, the exe also as high as mountain. Cant catch up the lecture is fine, hope i can finish up my exe and do it all by myself, and thats perfect^^

Doing the Math is no the bad part, it the book make things worst. The book is so heavy, and always feel like dont wan to use it. I admit that book is a good one, except its weight..zzzz i prefer it use the cheaper paper to reduce the crazy weight ><"

Tonite, maybe facing the programming assignment ><", or maybe the Electronic assignment...Compare to the Math, Electronics some how like all is new things...Now still better slowly can catch up ady, i think after few exe will be fine.

Wednesday, for me in this sem is so free, whole day 2 hour lecture den all is free time. SO FREE!^^

A Quiet Saturday~~

What a shinny day, but i ain't feel hot, maybe becoz i am in my room all the time. This Saturday, somehow given me a feeling that, my life is peaceful.

Woke up around 8, bt b4 that i be someone alarm at 6.45, den slp back^^...den, planing to do homw work. but i clicked on the maple icon..pop, sit here whole morning and afternoon...DIE...hw how?

Ltr nite go watch movie..N1^^ Ip man 2...

改变~

没有东西是永久的，东西，工具，我们把它用到坏了，就丢掉。如果，那工具是有感受的，那它会怎样呢? 很多时候，我们需要别人的帮忙，可是帮了，说了一声谢谢后，就消失了 。人家说，好人难当，其实，好人很容易当，只是不求回报的好人难当。虽然是口口声声说没关系，心里怎样想只有自己知。人就是那么善变了，有新的，旧的就把它丢在一旁了。世上，有一种人为了别人而活，一次一次地成为别人的脚踏石，一次一次的被遗忘。

距离~

有人说，就算距离在远，心还能近的。爱的力量。。可是，我所见的，不是如此。距离能把两颗本来很近的心分离。

我很讨厌距离，更讨厌，好不容易才接近，又要分离了。距离，不但是爱情的坟墓，它也是友情，亲情的坟墓。

insecure, helpless ~~

I duno why, now i starting to doubt what i have been doing is rite or wrong, should i giving them advise? am i hurting them more instead of helping them?


On the other hand, what should i do with my lab report? ><", I really duno where to get those information...or should i follow back by old ways? just do as much as i can without putting maximum effort in it? for now, what is the risk? worth to try? I running out of time, feel so helpless



(i admit blog sure usefull~~) I dont k what other thinking abt it any more, i just wan to vent my feeling out...too much for me to bare everything, i not iron man or superman

Can i be more self discipline? o.O~

Today, is the 1st day of school after one week mid sem break holiday. I made out a time table, and told myself have to wake up at 6am. I did awake at 6am but after turn off the alarm i fall back asleep. and woke at 8.30am zzz, lucky my class today start at 2.30 pm

2mr need to pass up the damn lab report, i have no idea how to do with in, maybe later go to library to look for some books to refer.

A bad start for me for today...haiz, gonna be more self discipline~~~

Well, not a good day~

Today, i reach kuching around 12pm, then found out every house mate still slping =="...well tats normal haha.

after that, around 4.30, uncle bring us go for pc fair, dark cloud all over the sky of kuching, gonna rain soon...but it dont affect the passion of those computer lover or "crowd lover" the pc fair is full of ppl until hardly walk nor see goods. all i can see is HUMAN zzzz...at the end i bought a cool master cooling pad, quite stratify with its design, still testing its cooling power.


after that, i spent all my time in front computer, mapling, fbing, msning. Well the front part still ntg bad happen except the raining part. The here come the worst, my close one, facing problem. sry for cant go any detail into it, but all i can do is pei them as much as i can to help them forget the thing. i do hope i can do better, but i cant. i wish they get fine soon, seeing them like that, i also not feel so alrite.


well enough for the sad part, lucky got another fren was happy and get hyper active over it haha, i glad to see her so cheer up. with everyone can like her, hapi~~~

Meal on plane~

I really like those meals on plane^^, today when i going back to kuching, is the 2nd times i enjoy the "chickens noodles" Yummy^^, the first time is when i going back to kk haha. Only one thing no nice is the table too low for me, i have to bend all the way down to eat the food. the plane is a bit shaggy today, as alot of black cloud on kuching's sky, then just not so long after i touch down, it start raining..oh great =="

My everyday's life

well now is my one week holidays, i know i really need to put more effort in studies , but in holiday i just wan to relax and charge up. tomorrow i going back to kuching, then i starting to follow the new time table which i have made. well it is a tiring schedule, but is for study, i try my best and be self discipline. hope i can chase back and not so lose behind^^ well maple still a part of my life, oni it will become the smaller part.

远离，放弃~

唉，缘分在我身旁兜兜转转的，很多我抓不着。失去的也不是十只手指可以数的了，有些是我十分珍惜的，失去了，要一段时间去平复那不安的心情，去习惯没有他们的日子。很多时候，我会想，如果我习惯了孤单，那些缘分的来去，我都不用在乎了。很多时候我都在逃避，因为不想伤害他们，自己也受不了，甘愿放弃那缘分，离他们远远的。世上有“感情过敏症”吗？，别人对我的态度稍微变了一点，我很快就会察觉，有些都是莫须有的，想太多。《枫之谷》那游戏，让人乐让人伤，很多次想停了，停不了。现在，又有一个缘分在离开的边缘了。一个很珍贵的缘分，我甘愿放弃那缘分，都不想看着它变质。缘分变质，我经历过了，很恐怖！现在，很多象征都出现了，跟你说了，但是你不明白，算了，真的不想再有第二次了，趁早，一走了之吧。不要怪我自私吧，你保重了。

只因为我爱你~

只因为我爱你，
我会时不时想起你的好，
想起你对我说过的话，
想起你与我的点点滴滴，
而那些不好的，
也被我锁在了心灵的深处，
不让它破坏你在我心中的完美形象...

只因为我爱你，
我会时时刻刻地注意着你，
却又怕被你发现，
所以我都默默地躲在你的背后，
支持着你...

只因为我爱你，
我可以半夜不睡觉，
等着你的一封温馨的信息，
只希望知道你是安好的，
我也就放心了...

只因为我爱你，
我可以不顾别人的看法，
一心只要对你好，
无论别人怎么批评，
我依然相信，
我的选择是对的..

只因为我爱你，
我放弃了我的骄傲，
我放弃了我的任性，
愿意低下头来，
换取好好和你相处的机会...

只因为我爱你，
一切的一切都不再重要了，
打从我爱你的那一刻起，
我已经不再是我了，
因为我的生命中，
只剩下你了...

或许你会觉得我的很傻，
但我傻的甘愿，傻得很幸福，
只因为我爱你~

我只想静静地守侯在你的身边，
就算结局不完美，
我也无怨无悔...

你可以不爱我，
但不能阻止我爱你...

因为爱，所以傻，

我只想对你好....

讓人心疼的12句話~

1~有些事，我們明知道是錯的，也要去堅持，因為不甘心；
有些人，我們明知道是愛的，也要去放棄，因為沒結局；
有時候，我們明知道沒路了，卻還在前行，因為習慣了。

2~以為蒙上了眼睛，就可以看不見這個世界；
以為摀住了耳朵，就可以聽不到所有的煩惱；
以為腳步停了下來，心就可以不再遠行；
以為需要的愛情，只是一個擁抱~可是你心中的真愛是在這裡嗎？

3~那些已經犯過的錯誤，有一些是因為來不及，有一些是因為刻意躲避， 更多的時候是茫然地站到了一邊。我們就這樣錯了一次又一次，卻從不曉得從中汲取教訓，做一些反省或是努力補救。

4~你不知道我在想你，是因為你不愛我，我明明知道你不想我，卻還愛你，是因為我太傻。也許有時候，逃避不是因為害怕去面對什麼，而是在等待什麼。

5~天空沒有翅膀的痕跡，但鳥兒已經飛過；
心裡沒有被刀子割過，但疼痛卻那麼清晰。
這些胸口裡最柔軟的地方，被愛人傷害過的傷口，遠比那些肢體所受的傷害來得犀利，而且只有時間，才能夠治癒。

6~很多人，因為寂寞而錯愛了一人，但更多的人，因為錯愛一人，而寂寞一生。我們可以彼此相愛，卻注定了無法相守。不是我不夠愛你，只是我不敢肯定，這愛~是不是最正確的。

7~如果背叛是一種勇氣，那麼接受背叛則需要一種更大的勇氣。
前者只需要有足夠的勇敢就可以，又或許只是一時衝動，
而後者考驗的卻是寬容的程度，絕非衝動那麼簡單，需要的唯有時間。

8~生命無法用來證明愛情，就像我們無法證明自己可以不再相信愛情。
在這個城市裡，誠如勞力士是物質的奢侈品，愛情則是精神上的奢侈品。可是生命脆弱無比，根本沒辦法承受那麼多的奢侈。

9~人最大的困難是認識自己，最容易的也是認識自己。
很多時候，我們認不清自己，只因為我們把自己放在了一個錯誤的位置，給了自己一個錯覺。所以，不怕前路坎坷，只怕從一開始就走錯了方向。

10~生活在一個城市裡，或者愛一個人，又或者做某件事，時間久了，就會覺得厭倦，就會有一種想要逃離的衝動。也許不是厭倦了這個城市、愛的人、堅持的事，只是給不了自己堅持下去的勇氣。

11~多少次又多少次，回憶把生活劃成一個圈，而我們在原地轉了無數次，無法解脫。總是希望回到最初相識的地點，如果能夠再一次選擇的話，以為可以愛得更單純。

12~如果你明明知道這個故事的結局，你或者選擇說出來，或者裝作不知道，萬不要欲言又止。有時候留給別人的傷害，選擇沉默比選擇坦白要痛多了。

19句至理名言

1、如果发短信息给一个人，他一直不回，不要再发了。没有这么卑微的等待。

2、如果没有人陪，学着一个人听音乐看书写点心情日记。这是个好习惯。

3、如果一个人很难过，找个角落或者在被子里哭一下，不需要别人同情可怜，哭过之后一样开心生活。

4、如果一个人开始怠慢你，请你离开他。不懂珍惜你的人不要为之不舍，更不必继续付出你的友情或爱情，到头来受伤的是自己他人不会为之难过。

5、如果可以不抽烟，别抽。如果可以不喝酒，别喝。这是不爱惜自己身体的表现，如果只因一些人，那么我们别傻了，爱你的人不会让你难过的。

6、伤心的时候找个信任的朋友诉说一下，不要一个人默默承受，这只会会更添寂寞感与忧伤。

7、不开心的时候白天看看蓝天晚上看看夜色，广阔的天空自有属于我们 爱，宁可高傲的发霉不要低调的恋爱。跟自己说我是最好的。保持一份自信。

8、宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞随手抓一个恋人，这对两人都不公平，而且太缺乏责任感。找个知己不要是恋人。

9、记住你喜欢的人的生日，包括你的家人，当然，还有自己。生日没有人送礼物也无所谓，你可以买精美的礼物，送给妈妈和爸爸。

10、闲下来的时候,放一段柔情音乐，翻阅几页好书，然后睡个懒觉，快哉。心情不好的时候,也可以睡一觉。

11、从现在开始，聪明一点，不要问别人想不想你？爱不爱你？若是要想你或者爱你自然会对你说，但是从你的嘴里说出来，别人会很骄傲和不在乎你。

12、不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，顺其自然以最佳心态面对，因为这世界就是这么不公平往往在最在乎的事物面前我们最没有价值。

13、不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃饭、哭泣、自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的事。当然，偶尔傻一下有必要，人生不必时时聪明。

14、任何情况下，背后不说他人是非。如果一定要你说，说好话。多个朋友是好事，即使不是很要好的，总比因为自己说话不慎重不思考而多一个敌人好得多。

15、允许偶尔看肥皂剧，但不可成为依赖。允许偶尔披头散发，但要注重场合。允许偶尔骂脏话，但只限在老友面前或者独自一人时，记得说过后要忘掉那些让你难过的事。

16、一定要有几个异性朋友，没有非分之想.就是关键时候,帮你出出主意的好友。

17、学会承受痛苦自己调整心态。有些话，适合烂在心里，有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记。当经历过，你成长了，自己知道就好。很多改变，不需要你自己说，别人会看得到。

18、能不和人争吵尽量避免。一个发怒的人是很恐怖的，会因控制不了情绪变成疯子。忍耐然后思索问题的根源最后平静心态解决它 。

19、不管和谁有了矛盾和别扭，解决的时间不要超过24小时。否则麻烦会更多。在可以接受的范围内，先道歉。让自己做做坏人不是件真的坏事。

生活可以很复杂以可以很简单，我们不要总是活在忧伤和痛苦之中，爱自己多一点！不为一些不值得的事物而觉得生活总是那么的痛苦无助，人生的方向盘掌握在我们自己手里，有一天阳光大道等着我们走，放开自己，高傲的活着，只要自己幸福开心的，痛苦过去的伤就让他随风而去吧....告诉世界我们属于现在而不是过去！

苦和甜~

埃，脑袋又拿了一堆的问题来想。世间的扭曲，人类的弱点。好的是坏的；坏的是好的。这说法怪吧？好比说，原谅是是好的，可是原谅坏的人，是坏的。如果不原谅坏的，难道原谅好的吗？这么说，原谅是坏的，那么为什么还要原谅呢？另一个例子吧，甜是好的，苦是坏的对吧？甜会带来甜尿病，可是苦口良药，这也对啊。好吧，不说吃的苦和甜，就说人生的吧。苦是为了要得到甜，当人得到所谓甜，那么身体就开始退化了吧？为什么？因为懒了啊。可以不懒的？不懒就要劳动了咯，劳动就叫苦了啊。果然还是苦好吧？可以让身体健康。

晚安~

不知什么时候开始，我就喜欢听别人对我说晚安。当听到时会感到很温暖。可能是因为在宁静的深夜里，居然还有人在乎而感到安慰吧。心又开始痛了，干嘛啦？可能突然觉得自己一直都孤单一个人，受委屈了。努力了而得不到赞赏的那种感觉，努力还不够吗？为什么没人察觉。人家说，人是敌不过命运的，要改变命运就要吃尽苦头。到头来只不过弄到自己伤痕累累。我喜欢那下着毛毛雨，刮着风的灰天，仿佛听到那风对我说话，它告诉我，我的人生就是那样，像表情的灰天，像泪水雨滴，像心情的风。累了，失望了。

风，飞，梦~

风，一个莫不着的东西，但却能带给你舒服的感觉。说到风，一片无止境的天空浮现了，是蓝色的，还有一片片白云，很想飞，尽情地飞，那不受约束的感觉，很自由啊，很快乐啊。多么美啊，是梦吗？如果是，我不想醒了。听！是歌声，多美妙啊。有着水流声配乐，很动听。这一刻能停留吗？不，是这一刻能继续吗？那温柔的风，那里来的啊？要去那里啊？能带我一起走吗？带我去飞翔可以吗？

远离，是为了保护自己~

埃，好久没写咯，也算是好事吧。没有难过，所以没写咯。不开心的，就不要去想吧。不敢再把期望放在别人身上了。最后伤得还是自己。最近，喜欢听电台，听到能配合心情和味觉的歌就下载咯。像风那样的水瓶座，我多么想能像别人那样，能每天反复的做同样的事，不用去烦做到很腻，全都麻木了。我真的很想脱离一切跟“她”有关的事。我本来很喜欢槟城，就因为那“狗”，我听到槟城，就痛恨入骨。我不知哪里弄来的信心，相信自己能东山再起。我的天空依然是灰的，那正是风最强的时候。

今天~

今天，对我来讲是个非常特别的日子。我刻意留到十二点，为了迎接它的到来。目的？要看谁记得咯！我心目中当然有些盼望和期待。我想，“她”都忘了吧。那些在“面子书”祝我的，谢咯。老实说有些感动。^^算你们够朋友。可是有些“人”，让我失望了。可能，是我想太多了吧，唉，没办法咯。我就是这样的啦，没办法改了咯。不理了，去睡了。（果然，还是被那水瓶座的分析说中了吧，“水瓶座的想法没人能捉摸到”。注定孤单了吧，心里话没人懂）

Emo can become Habit~

I just found out that..Emo will become a habit, once it become habit, you will tend to make yourself emo even you dont want to. Why I will wan to dig myself in? Maybe only the warmness of tears can warm up my heart. I so wish i can be cool hearted, without any emotion i can live without suffer! I wish~~~I really do~~

Things to do~

Erm, I maybe day dreaming again, so i write it down so i can remember what have I dream^^.

1. Learn Swimming
2. Learn WuShu
3. Learn Dancing
4. Learn Guitar
5. Learn Piano
6. Learn Japanese language
7. Learn 1st aid
8. Train my Thinking sharper
9. Get rid of my laziness
10. Learn Make dreams a reality!


There are more i think~~` but i keep it 10 1st, to prevent i lose my heart before i achieve something.

算了，累了~

算了，累了。。。我又是想太多，让自己去期待那些根本不存在的事。自己很了不起吗？被人有那么软弱吗？算了啦，从今以后，我就只管我自己的事吧，除非别人需要帮忙。终于安静了吧，我在逃避吗？也许吧，那又怎样？我过得好一些就可以了。花为这世界天上了色彩，让这世界更漂亮，可是花不是为这世界而开，是为了自己而开。干嘛要限制自己？真的想看下自己的百分百能到多远。跟自己约定吧？就这“百分百”就可以了。为别人做的也太多了吧，是时候做给自己了。百分百？嗯，百分百！

Think Before You do~

Well, People always say think before you do. Me? Think and not do. I found out that i good at planning my own things, but when time come, I simply can find an excuse to allow me lay back. So much ambition, so much dreams but no determination, no the so call "fire". How can I ignite the fire? or maybe i should say how can I keep the fire still until the dish has cooked? hmm, I wonder, I dont wan get old but without a couples of nice story to show off to my kids! (this should ignite the fire, but how long it burn?) I so hungry for the outcome which done by my own hand covered with my sweat!

A Hope on a Special fren?

What wrong with me? why i need to depend on someone so much? I got my own life, and of coz she got hers, she dont have bare the responsibility to accompany me all the time. I understand that but why i feel slightly cool from her, my mood will float? Sometimes i really wan be cold hearted, Sometimes i really wan to keep my distance with other in order to get used to the loneliness. What a useless being of me, so the test was true, my EQ was below average. I cant control my emotion, it just fly as it like. I guess the "she" did affected much, way too much, my whole personality already change, most of my fren can feel tat, maybe i trying to keep myself from getting hurt again, I closed my heart, all words from frens cant get into it. I keep telling myself to hold myself together, i tried every way to get myself back. Those ways is working but not for long, after awhile or smtg happened, i just will turn back to tat floating emotion self. Now i writing this, my emotion also floating, all my sentence are not organize. I just rushing to write all out from my heart, it is pain, pouring all to blog will help me feel better, but not for long, soon or later i will be back to tat so called emo self. I just dun like the feel, the pain was so clearly from heart spreading to other part of body, i guess some of you out there know what i talking abt. How can i face it? Am i wrong? why "she" wan to left this behind? Too many unanswered questions; why cant i live happily with my fren and family? why "she" need to appear in my mind my dream wherever i go?The empty space tat she leave behind, can someone replace it?I just relize, i holding my emotion back so much becoz i told myself cant be emo anymore, now release all out, i feel alot better. It is so unfair, why i have to get punish like tis? where have i did wrong? Sry frens, i guess i let u guys down again. well, i still wan to ask u all, no need to bare the negative emotion from me, even i know some of u will just do it, becoz of fren, but just let me be bar, i will let my emotion dance with the melody of songs i listening to. Duno when this will end, duno how many times more i have to fall down again.

可惜我是水瓶座~

水瓶座，天才星，思想跟别人不一样，情绪无人能抓摸。这就好比把水瓶座和孤单画上等号，心情忽上忽下，风像星的特征吧？像风，飘飘然的性格，谁能理解？我的节拍，谁能跟？很多朋友都尽力了，心里很感激，很感动，也带着有些对不起的。水瓶座，要特别就要孤单，我能怎样？只能认命吧！埃~

跌倒了？

ouch!又跌倒了，还是那么的痛。该死的，干吗还是那么笨啊？跌倒了，能怎样？放弃一切？那么之前的努力不就白费了吗？惟有再站起来咯，痛？记着那感觉，告诉自己不要再痛就要学聪明一点。相信走到最后会有一片自己所要的天空，就算弄到全身伤都要要紧牙根继续跑。我要跑咯, 不等你了。

爱的光环~

谁不渴望被爱？活在那爱的光环里多么幸福，多么舒服。但一离开那光环，我们的生存率有多少呢？那光环，不能像我们所要得那样永久，我们慢慢得长大，那光环，慢慢地也不够用了。多么渴望我永远是小孩，有人保护，有人帮我出头。长大了，只能靠着自己那双手，努力得为着生活而奋斗。人多么无能啊，怪时间不能倒流吧，怪缘分就是不能长久吧。童年，我们天真的在草场奔驰，不小心跌倒，有那双温暖的手为我擦着留下来的泪和那温柔的声音安慰着我。长大了，跌倒，要逼自己再爬起来，不管多痛，也要告诉自己不能哭。还是当小孩比较好吧？

性格 vs 星座~

在这世上，住着不同不同类型的人，在这里我是指性格。可能有些人不认同我的说法，有些人会说我迷信。可是，我还是坚持认为，那不是迷信。人的性格，能以星座来分类。可是，不同的环境，会酿成不同的性格，所以星座不能100%准确地描述人的性格。所以，有些人是例外的，可是不能说完全不符合星座所说的。

同样类型的人，会散发着同样的气质，同样类型的人，我可见得不少。可是，要寻找自己类型的人，全靠缘分了。我可算是其中的一位吧，我和她是在网上（Maple Story）游戏认识，我也忘了什么原因，我们开始聊起来，越聊越起劲，发现对方都很了解自己。那个笨蛋，用了最差劲的形容词来形容彼此~肚子里的虫 ==。我发现，我们两的家庭背景，差不多一样的，另一个说法是我们的父母也是同类型的。缘分很奇妙哦。

可是，我们俩是不同星座的，可能不是我们性格一样吧，只是看法一样（父母“培养”出来的）。 人真的很复杂，简简单单不就好了吗？

守护天使 vs 有限的缘分

我相信守护天使，天使在童话故事里，是带着慈祥笑容，陪着一对雪白的翅膀的。而我所谓的守护天使，就是在我们身旁，关心我们的人。我发现，这段时间里，我一直在接近不同不同的人。帮着他们维护那微弱的心灵，他们也是如此。这可以说，我们是彼此的守护天使吧。就好像，我们被刻意安排在这茫茫人海中遇见。可是，缘分会有终结的一天，当我们以一个守护天使的身份，来到他们身旁，我们会发现，我们为彼此的人生，画下了忘不了的回忆。当我们完成任务，他们不再需要我们来维护他们的心灵，我们会随着时间慢慢，慢慢的在他们身旁消失。无论我们怎样的不愿意，怎样的哭泣，怎样的呐喊，我们还是注定离开他们，去展开另一个新的旅程。就这样，反复反复得演变，无法逃避。

不顺眼~

这天下，这地上，住着各式各样的人。有些人活在自己的道理，有些人活在别人给的道理。不是因为i那些道理是对的，是那些道理让他们觉得很舒服。可是，每个人握着不同的道理，往往会有冲突。表面上是能避免，事实上只不过在逃避。那还算是小事，有些人觉得自己很了不起，往往都要逼着别人接受他那一套道理。每个人都有自己的一片天空，让自己自由得飞翔，逼别人飞在你的天空，换回来的只是挣扎。我就是我，不用你管。我就是看你不顺眼，你又能怎样？你以为只有你会带面具做人？你的面具，我一眼就看穿了。我想，我现在写着你，我想你也不知吧。

Exam again~~

Haiz, relax abit then have exam again~~~Last exam like just in yesterday and next week need face another 2 exam....Sej and Moral was never my strong subj, I really dont get the points of study this two subj. From primary school till Uni, I just cant flee from this two subj haiz. Luckily both of my presentation is on Monday, then i can clear my mind then focus on study. I just hope i can pass and get into degree. What a waste of One and Half month~~~~~~Wish me luck

I just wan be who I am~

I wanna change, I tired to my old self who always wear a mask in order to prevent someone hating me, then end up losing myself. What will i wanna care? they will hate me because we are not getting along, why would i wanna fake myself out in order to get along with them. well? I do admit this will result to loneliness, but i prefer loneliness than tiring myself endlessly just to get along. I believe that, there are someone out there who mean for me to get along. and I can still be back myself, not just a acting. Is there law say cannot have less friend? Nothing wrong with less friend, if someone got many friend, but non is close friend, is there any meaning? what a waste of time and life. I prefer best friend than numerous of faker. well i trow out my boom who will hit? i don't know, and don't wanna know~

End of 2009~

well, i was happy 2009 ended^^...2009 was a sad year for me, ya there are come fun also, but compare to sadness, fun was just a mere of sand...haiz..well it was over..^^ welcome 2010..what will happen? i cant wait to know..my summer semester also end, left few week, how preparing for the presentation on next Monday. almost can back home le, miss family and friends so much, cant wait to be back~~~